Fine! I told youngyi that I am not going to upload new post today but no matter how tired I am, I still have to communicate with the world I guess. Since this is the only few platform to express myself. and I need meditation.

Sucky mood continued from yesterday and I can tell you that it will continue tomorrow thank god :) F. Anyway, it is so horrible that I have nothing to look for now. Nothing absolutely nothing. I lost all the happiness from tiny little miny things. such as I used to look for new videos to be uploaded in Youtube. I used to feel happy just by finding some nice random song in the net. I used to feel extremely contented by drinking R Irish nuts Creme. Btw I did not drink for more than 3 weeks. Gosh. miss you darling.

Well. But today I feel better than yesterday for some reason. Actually there is no reason. I just feel happy because today I realised that I am extremely weak in integration (I had no understanding, wtf ) but then Youngyi taught me all the gist of integration to me. I feel safe now. She was as good as or even better than my maths teachers in the school. Whatever questions that I ask her, she has answers. Amazing. :D This is public Flattering hahaha :)

I will be scolded again tml :( poor olly.

It has been quite fruitful I would say. At least I did not waste time doing nothing or just simply sleeping. But I do not expect much things out of this prelim two. Because I know my preparation is ABSOLUTELY not enough. Sigh. Ok. Byebye. I need meditation like right naooooooooooooo. m.m