OMG. I have been eating good food for last 4 days and I am still putting RITZ into my mouth! Goodness. I better stop eating :( Better be motivated to stop eating since tomorrow I have first PE lesson of the term which means we are going to take height&weight. I do not want to be underheight! Anyway, I love her face, big eyes nose lips. I love face like that@

Ok. Today is Sunday. I went to church and it was quite demoralising though cause I do not know what to believe. Should I believe god? or myself? I cannot lose control rather do not want to lose control in my life. I do not know how people can let the life to be controlled by the god. I mean I am still not ready for that. But I know I have to give my life to Jesus holy Christ. Goshhh :( Why is it so hard.

I have to write down some prayer title for this week.

1.Safe arrival from Turkey for my mom & healthy and happy life for my dad and grandma and all the family members.

2.I want my sister to be positive, strong and happy for coming week.

3.Let VOV have productive and happy school life for next week.

4.Hope Hadi always stays happy and healthy.

5.Kenny's legs need to be recovered ASAP too

6.Please let Harry to have peace in his mind and have fruitful time with his loveones before his NS. Sad man.

Lastly for myself, please give me some space in my mind that I can take care of other people, always share love with others and get closer to god for god sake.

Do I look some freak christian-wannabe? I better be since my sister wants it so much. Sigh! Fine. It will come naturally nobody can force me anyway. And bible is too thick and difficult to read sigh. Am I going to go church again next week? Idk. I better. Okk at least I must show jesus christ that I do not find him only when I need him right.

It's already 0930 PM and have not done anything beside eating non-stop edeert. Ok byebye! God bless you hahahahaha AMENNNNNNNNNN too!