I just read shocking news from yahoo. "TWO PJC GIRLS COMMITTED SUICIDE." To summarise some of the facts from the article, two girls are from same class and one of them committed suicide 2 weeks after another one committed suicide. This is tragic. I did not know Singapore students commit suicide. What I mean is that, as a Korean, students committing suicide is no longer that shocking news for me in Korea because I have been reading suicide article almost every week. I can guarantee you that Korean students are living the most horrible lives as students in the world. You gotta believe me, they are living in the school literally from 8 AM to 10 PM. The real sad thing is that every student commits suicide for same reason. STUDIES. And all these students are smart and hard-working students who are very passionate in studying and getting good grades. I understand and I do not want to blame them for being irresponsible for their lives and stuff cause I seriously think that nobody will understand how they feel and they might have been shouting for help like crazy but nobody probably heard them. This is always the case.

As a JC student, I really feel sad for them. I never felt like committing suicide before because my parents always ask me that there are always other choices even if you cannot make in to uni, so your health and well-being are more important than anything. (But of course I know, study is damn important duh.) Although, I know that they are indirectly still caring about my studies, all these sweet talks will make me feel being loved by my parents as a daughter but not as a JC student.

It is true that nothing can be done. It is also true that students now are very weak physically and mentally. We are brought up in this way anyway. I know it is impossible for JC to all of a sudden change their education system and allow us to take 2 H2 or exempt us from PW. I think Singapore education is great. Nothing should be omitted cause they are all important in one way or another. However, It is too hectic. Come on. We have 24 hours for a day, 7 days for a week and for god sake we have less than 2 years for A level. I know if we study hard for these 2 years, our next 20 years will be paradise but are you sure? How are you going to explain about even more fierce competition in society. I do not know. I just feel very helpless when I come to think all about this. Should I just fly to Argentina, marry gypsy and live like some bohemian? Should I just join some tribes in Amazon and be their 9th wife? Clueless. That is why I hate to think about all these. It will just make you feel even more demoralised.

They always say, there are millions of people who are happy without any high education and whatever materials. That millions of people do not make us feel better because the fact that I and we are in Singapore to study means we want to live our lives differently. Who do not want to be rich and smart. I want to be rich. like extremely rich and buy all the good stuffs for my parents and family. I want to marry someone who is perfect too and again they always say, if you want to marry the man you want, you should be as good as him. STFO. Everything is true. But all the against arguments are true too. Everything is contradicting. So I gotta believe myself. Right. That is why I do not like to listen to so many people. It will just mess up my own belief.

In conclusion, I think to prevent this committing suicide issue, as a student we must be mentally stronger and realise that giving up life is the worst solution that you can choose. You might leave this horrible world without any worries but how about people you left on this earth? They will live with guilt for their entire lives. and parents, teachers everybody, you do not need to say "Grades are not everything", cause we know it is totally crap. Instead why don't you show more care and concern for our well-being and other aspects of life beside studies. Nobody asks, Did you rest enough? while Everybody asks, Did you study enough? FO. I do not know seriously this post is damn sucky to the max.

P.S.I send my condolences to two girls, rest peacefully for the rest of your lives without any worries but full of love. Amen.