I really feel like puking and I seriously think that i am running out of engine.

I know I have to study but I really can't concentrate and so many things are going on this my precious one revision week! WTH. This one week is not even enough for my revision but still I have other extra things to do.

I had to spend whole yesterday to write the econ competition essay. I want to write good piece since I am in it. Moreover, yesterday I received this email from YCM that I have to evaluate two proposals as practice for today training session.

Yes, I have 3 hours training today from 0630 to 0930!

Today Damn fkd up. I went to Starbucks around 12 so that I can take mrt from harbour front directly but what happen? I feel sooo uneasy sitting down in that my comfortable heaven place. I kept feel like puking and I tried to sit in different poses to make myself feel comfortable it totally didn't work! So yes, now I am home. I have to go to harbour front again in 2 hours. Wasting time here and there and this puking feeling is really driving me crazy.

Actually, I experience this puking feeling quite often especially near to exam period. I am totally not ready. My protein? I think I will drag until sunday! and my econ? My dream to go Shanghai is GG! fine, ask my mom to visit me instead! and whatelse? physics! The last time that I flipped the physics notes was last friday in Kimberly's home. GREAT OLLY!

OMG. I really dun want to disappoint myself. Ok Don't care about others. They study hard then I study harder! SIGH. I miss my home so much. I feel so insecure now. I don't know what I am thinking now. I don't know when I will be stable again. SHIT LIKE HELL. I need my loving family. I really feel down down down down down until cannot take it. FUCK. So long I didn't feel this disastrous but I really don't want to meet anyone I want to lock myself in plane and just let me go back. FUCK. LIFE SUX FOR NOW.