Without failing to disappoint me, after cruel February was even more cruel March; physically, mentally and emotionally.

I realised the fact that actually there is nobody when I really need anybody desperately. I tried so hard to fight against this loneliness ever since I stepped in Singapore, but as time goes by nothing is left but people around me are keep leaving for their own reason. Sometimes I ask for it sometimes it just happens to be.

Another cruel fact is that I have too good memory. I wish I can just forget about things easily but I would never be able to do it. I will remember things that people cannot even remember. Hate this. It always make me feel sick for remembering things that others do not even remember or they wonder whether it even happened.

Everybody feels differently but nothing was easy for me. Opening my mind to new people, get to know about new people and the consequence is always ugly and painful. But as long as others can go through it, I believe I can somehow go through it with hope that it is all matter of the time.

When will I be out of this lonely cycle. Or 4 years of studying in overseas is saturation point already? If this gets worse day by day, I do not know how the hell am I going to live in this tiny island.

Hope everything is fine with me just like everything is so fine with you.

When you refused to answer me, I realised that there is nothing left in you about me; no love, no care but indifference and bothering.