O L L Y ♥

I MOVED!

2011-06-11T07:56:00.001-07:00

Hi. Peeps. As the title suggests, I moved to tumblr. Sad much and Sorry much for my Blogger.

Sorry. I am such a betrayer but you know what. Tumblr skin is cooler. Sighsighsigh.

It proves that I am just another slave of trend.

But please acknowledge my hard work to resist the temptation of Tumblr for many months.

Adios and will visit you again.

Ohhh. so my new add is

http://olly-goes-mad.tumblr.com

and you are always to welcome to hear my crap :)

Olly's Officially Adult Day?

2011-05-10T22:31:00.000-07:00

Before I begin my post, I am crazily obssessed with Vanessa. Her hair and dressing. I never really liked how hollywood actress dressed or rather I was not so interested in but oh well she is freaking cute. Especially I love all the colouful shirts and shorts that she wear. Love her more when she is in the picture. I don't really like the way she sounds but still lovely.

You know today is "Adult Day" for those who are born in 1991 :D We are 20 in Korea. Woohoo. Great. I am officially (this is important) adult as if I was not last year or even previous year? Anyway, in Korea, those who celebrate Adult Day which is me this year, must receive roses, rings, necklaces or even kiss from prince charming as a gift but in reality I got myself bitter ice coffee this morning. well there is no link in here. Alright. I am sad but shouldn't be so sad cause my dad will be coming to Singapore on this Friday and my mom just sent parcel including two summer dresses with lots of cosmetics from Korea Whheeeeee. Lovely. I cannot wait to try new dresses <3 Love you mommy and Dorothy!

Nowadays, I am pretty much packed with my work :D No more slacking or watching korean drama in my work though I still do facebook a lot and a lot. Feel very happy to be occupied with work and overloaded as I hate wasting time and inefficiency. Weirdly (If there is such a word pfft), I will become more efficient if I have excessive works so yeaa happy with my work.

And one weird thing which I don't know whether I can write it here or not but I will just write it and delete later if I feel like hahaahah. Nowadays, I dream almost daily and my ex-boyfriend is always the main actor in my dream hahahaahahaha Sharks what the hell is this hahahahaha I cannot really remember the content but somehow I remember I saw him in the dream hahahaaha but I don't really think about him thesedays I thought? anyway I think he is just one of the good friends now at least I feel hahaha no more pit-a-pat and mourning after a year of all the missing and stuff. I am happy lalalalala. Ok. Hope I will delete this or hope he doesnt read my blog which I think he doesnt so ok. done.

Lastly, I am gonna learn kickboxing from sports complex I guess! Still considering some other sports toooo but I want to learn something that I can perspire like madddd breathelessly. and I have fantasy over kickboxing! It looks cool though I am sure I will look like some clowns jumping hopping up and down with my poses.

Gotta stop eating bread. Choc-muffins and garlic bread for two consecutive days are not helping me to lose weight at all. Come onnnn! Anyway going for running today though I want to swim. Still weighing what to do for my night. Bye world!

Where is the love!

2011-05-10T00:03:00.000-07:00

So, yes. Where is the love? I am sure it is everywhere except wherever I present. no? yes. So is there any mathematical or statistical figure that proves the percentage of the guy that she likes likes her at the same time. Exactly at the same time. Currently, I don't love anyone sharks how sad my life is. So my bun is less rounder, my make up is less thicker, all my feminine dresses are nicely displayed in my closet just to take up the space and blah blah. Oh and the saddest thing is that I have no one to think about when I run. TRAGIC. So I am practically lip-syncing all the songs in my mp3 to forget that I am running? whatever.

After listening to YY's story, again I really feel that love is so hard. But why do I see hundreds and thousands of couples in the street? I am sure number of attached people is many more than people who know how to do factorisation. Obviously, because even my primary 4 cousins have girlfriend in Korea and when his sister asked him "hey, where are you going?" then he replied "I am bringing my girlfriend to the new playground" WTH. hahahah please. seriously, go and learn how to factorise my dear cousin. Sighhhh. Ok, your old cousin sister is just being jealous like a loser *<*

I kinda love my current status. As in I have no crush (wowwww, seriously in such a long time) and no nothing. Alright. There is no guy in my life right now. I find no issue with that but you know when I watch movie like Bridget Jones Diary, He is not that into you, She's the man blahblah. just make me feel like being hooked up by some handsome huge american guy I mean built desperately. They are so hot. Their sizes are just awesome (Don't get me wrong. I mean their height and weight in general. btw, why am I explaining this? pfft). Freaking tall and Wide shoulder. I will feel shaded if I stand next to them.

Ok. Still waiting for uni! with a great hope that I will meet new peeps and people say Everybody will be attached in uni. So are you offending those who are not attached even when they are in uni? Aiyaaaaa maybe I should give up on my rabbit hairband to attract them? They don't like rabbit stuff?? And today one of the guys from my work asked me, "Is Easter coming?" wth hahaha kinda fond of this indirect joke.

I want to learn Sports. Seriously, I am in love with my night workout in Clementi Sports Hall and Stadium. IT ROCKS. When I step into the stadium, you know those spotlights? or whatever white lights that shine on me hahahahahah feel so damn kewl alright! and running like mad at night with evening breeze. I really love the moment. Gonna run today after the salvation army voluntary work. Hope I can make it after that. Ohhh yea and the sports that I am considering to learn is Squash but I am not sure where I can learn it though. I don't mind Tennis. I kind of want to take up the sports that need some kind of equipment. Do not suggest me weight lifting F. hahaha

Alright. Pleasant post today. though I don't know what am I talking again. It's alright at least you are reading. I mean whoever reading this crap lalalalalalal love you <3

MAY

2011-05-05T23:34:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOOO. MAY :D My life isn't very bad now and I love my new house. Ok, I want to write in more organised manner. First, my new house is such a love. I mean my room to be more specific. My landlord is very nice. As in nice because she is very kind, nice and no nagging or whatever shit hahaha thus I am trying my best to be very nice tenant by turning off all the lights, switches like everything when I am out. I keep my room clean. I sweep everyday and stuff which I did not do for last 5 years. Anyway, this new room is amazing. and NO PINI! Thanks :) Finally, she is out of my life. HURRAY. Secondly, Thank you Kimberlaloo for helping me! Thanks Thanks KOMAWOOOO <3 your mattress is great and your bread! I shared with my landlord and she loved it too hahahaaha Saturday morning, our first baking session! I want to bake for my landlord since this Sunday is Mother's day and she has no kid! So I will bake nice bread or cookies and give her as a tiny gift hahahahaa. Sorry to my REAL MOM in Korea hahahahahaa I am gonna buy something for her but I don't know what to buy for her! sighhhhhhhh <3 And, yesterday I went for running in the morning but well, it was not really satisfying :( I could not find the nice route so just ran around HDBs in clementi which wasnt very romantic for my running. Hope I can find some better place to run. My office moved to AMK which is damn far from my house but love the place and atmosphere. Ok back to work. Bye Peeps :D

You deserve disaster red dot! (not singapore llaalalla)

2011-04-30T20:51:00.001-07:00

Fuck Japan seriously, they are ruining this most beautiful sports with money and corruption.

Deliberately customising new rules to their own national skaters and paying black money to judges are not enough I guess. Fuck you.

She was beautiful and Korean do not care about whether Queen Yuna wins gold medal or silver medal because her performance cannot be judged or even marked by meaningless numbers. We should just appreciate her each movement as an art. Fuck. I am still very pissed by Japan and now I even pity them for having to buy gold medal as their players cannot do what Kim Yuna can do. Seriously, feel sad for her because she knows she deserves more than this. Fuck Japan. FJFJFJFJFFJFJFJFJFFJ!!!!

Ok. I feel lonely again. I want my family :( Moving house alone is getting on my nerves and feeling suck. I do not dare to ask ppl for help (I think this is my problem that do not dare to ask for help) cause I hate to be declined gently or whatever it is. I mean nobody is there when I really need them though they told me hundred times that "I will be there for you." Well, I may have no rights to say this as I, myself may not be there for them whenever they need but I still hate this reality. FUCK. :( Ok. I want to stop scolding I feel bad for my mouth.

Again, I hate to be ditched for whatever reasons and when I feel I am taken for granted, that will be the time I will start to let go off the person. Whether I need the person or vice versa and no matter how much I treasured the person. Seriously, losing someone is not a big deal after losing so many people in Singapore due to their further studies in other countries or go back to Korea but meeting new person that just nicely suits me is another problem. Seriously feel like asking mover to move everything back to Korea. Cause I am desperate.

Hello World!

2011-04-26T21:28:00.000-07:00

Ok. He is irrelevant to my post content
but being handsome is relevant enough to appear on my blog :)

Hello Peeps. Finally, I got back my moods to update blog Wheez!
Anyway, pretty much things are happening this week as I am moving house next Monday!
Good Bye Pasir Panjang :( Anyway, I am doing everything by myself and I feel sad about it but yet I am learning a lot from this! I looked for house by myself, went to subscribe Internet, ordered all the necessary furniture, signed the contract blahblah. It was irritating and exciting at the same time well. But I really appreciate people around me for their help and always ask me "Tell me if you need my help anytime" Like JACK! and DANIEL. The two great men that I met in Singapore! :D I will elaborate more later but anyway, this Sunday I will be moving some of my stuff first to Clementi as I already got the key for new house. Jack is gonna drive me to Clementi and shift stuff with me on Sunday! Greatt seriously I would not be able to do it alone but again Hen Xie Xie Ni hahaahh :D

Beside, moving house, I am accepted to NTU. Everybody CHEERS! Anyway, I am still waiting for NUS and SMU's reply :( And there my tiny boss goes, Daniel gave me a lot of advice in choosing university as he is the best economist hahahah in Singapore I guess, we guess.... :o hahahaha. I guess I will have lunch or tea with him in this weekend to get more advice and I better prepare some nice tiny token of appreciation for Jack and Daniel.

Oh, and my dad is leaving Bangladesh finally! Good for him, my sis and my mom but sad that he will continue his hobby, drinking again in Korea! Hope he stops drinking :( He loves beer toooooo much. I think he was German in his before life??? How do we call that? Whatever. And before he goes back to Korea, he will do transit in Singapore! and buy me a new bed Weehee. GREAT! and yeaaa gonna have good lunch with him <3

May is coming. It is just right at the corner hmmhmm.

In May, my biggest and the most important plan is "SPENDING TIME WITH YY!" :D I cannot believe she will leave Singapore in June :( Gonna date her every single day since now we are living so near each other! :)

Secondly, DIET! I am still on a diet but cannot stop drinking Milk Tea cause I feel incomplete when I do not drink :( But I did not eat Double-Choc Muffin for more than 3 weeks! and running regularly. I will live in Clementi Swimming Complex once I move house. Hope that swimming pool will be full of hot guys with wide shoulder, not those secondary school kids with stupid Spongebob tube. argh.

Thirdly, Prepare presents for family! I have been saving quite a lot and gonna buy great presents for my mom, dad, sis and uncle! :D

Lastly, my friend is visiting me in JUNE! Holy Crap! I am so damn happy and excited much ALR! Yaaayyyyy! :D Gonna plan what-to-do soon!

I am looking forward to start May though I feel sad that August is coming soon. I DO NOT WANT TO BE STUDENT AGAIN! :( oh well, but come to think of it, that will be the only place where I can make new friend and hopefully my beefcake <3

P.S. Meeting Shiny Today! :D She will have hell lots of things to tell me. EGGCITED! See you peeps!

LONGTIMENOSEE

2011-04-19T18:24:00.000-07:00

OMG. my double double double combo G-dragon! Such a cute <:-s

Anyway, I am very lazy to update blog thesedays and when I am not writing on blogger means I am writing on Cyworld which is my alternative korean blog. Anyway, nothing is soooo happening in my life nowadays so hmmmmm no issue to crap too! And even there were things happened in last few weeks, it cannot really be exposed in my blog so whatever. Still nothing to write.

SMU interview was like really SO-SO. I don't think I impressed the interviewers who looked sooo sick and tired of interviewee. And I was just so damn tired on Monday! Work, interview, teaching two students at night. WTF? Sooo I slept from 8 pm to the next morning 7 am. Great sleeping but I suffered alot on Tuesday. Felt so drowsy.

Today, work and teach one student and gonna run around HortPark hopefully! Since, really next week is going to be my last week in Pasir Panjang. How sad :/ but well I want to live new life too! And next week I will be really busy ordering furnitures and subscribing internet stuff and blahblah all the things that I am not very interested in! :O I hope I can just live in somewhere things are already furnished FULLY.

Alright. I am gonna be get lost from volivia. Bye!

no title.

2011-04-03T21:05:00.000-07:00

When I do not know how I exactly feel, How can I expect you to know how I feel.
I do not know where I am going. It seriously sucks so bad feeling this way.
Mentally & Physically exhausted but yet I cannot stop talking and thinking about it.
It is sickening but yet I cannot give up.
So what now.

Ideal lifestyle.

2011-04-02T06:24:00.001-07:00

Hello. Pink much with extra acting cute substance to feel young. Well. I do not know how to treat this picture anyway hahahahha

Sad note 1. No maid for next 3 weeks. Fuck. I do not like her but it does not mean that I do not need her. Sad much sobsob.

Well. As I said, the life that I am living now is well not exactly ideal. I am teaching, working and studying. Doing all three things that I love to do but why is it still not ideal? I mean the scene of all these do not look very beautiful or romantic. Taking MRT and damn crowded bus to go for tuition and wake up early in the morning to go Chinese lesson on Saturday. Well. It is just like that. My plan to relax in Gloria Jeans really for the sake of relaxing did not quite come true as I have other better things to do. Not exactly better but well, at least I get something out of those other activities.

I wanted to bake but have no one to bake for prevent me from baking hahahaaha. Sure, baking for friend is good but not good enough to drag myself to tiny kitchen to bake muffins with super extremely tiny toaster. Urghh.

The only nice thing about my life now is running in the evening. It really feels nice. I found many nice places and I am having good time with myself and music for at least that 2 hours. Apart from laptop and handphone. Though not much progress in losing weight. This sucks though.

Looking at my korean friends in Korea who used to be my primary school friends and like really those long time friends, I mean they still are my good friends. I feel sad that I cannot share things that they share in Korea. Why the hell everybody lives so far apart from me in Singapore. In Korea, I can just meet up with any of my friends at night to just crap in playground or walk all I can. I miss walking at night. I mean I can do this in Singapore but I cannot walk back to home. Wherever I am, I still have to take bus to get home which is not very nice.

Need some more nice music with nice people. Cross my fingers vigorously tonight again like any other day :->

GLEE - "Baby" Performance from 2/15!

2011-03-27T07:09:00.000-07:00

Infinite-With you (Chris Browniee)

2011-03-20T08:17:00.000-07:00

So!

2011-03-17T10:04:00.001-07:00

Strongly fond of him. Though I hate hairy guy, his stomach hair does not gross me so much. Yea. Face matters much. Another confirmation.

So. I have been pretty much busy with my work & tuition & uni apps thesedays.

On Monday and Tuesday, I was attached to Cenntenial Asia to translate some reports on North Korea's economy into English. Much easier than translating English into Korea. Should I be proud of it? Or feel ashamed for being sooo poor in Korean. :/ They paid me quite well. After working two days there, though I suffered a lot, I can get new bag from CK. Still thinking about it.

Tuition. As usual. Dealing with kids. Nth fun, just PASS!

Uni Apps. Wow I have lots of things to say but shall not till I get in. HAHA.

Alrighttt. Today, I had a great walking date with youngyi. We walked from Raffles City to ION. Great achievement. Two freaks who are dying to lose weight. I love people who can walk with me. As in must be able to walk long distance cause I love to walk, especially in heel. I will be amazed by the guy who walk well with pretty nice long legs. On the side note, pretty legs with no hair will be great. hate hairy guys. doesn't look sexy. Unless they have some transparent hair that is invisible.

Nobody knows how much I feel sad about not having boyfriend during the period that I would have so much time for them, or not. I mean, they will never be my first priority. Alright. gotta admit that, I am kinda selfish when it comes to work and love I guess. Who are not? or is it only me? does not matter though and why am I saying all this bad stuff here hahahahaaha. This is one reason why I should strongly get into uni. There should be many more guys in FASS righttt. Just say yessss lalalalalalalaall. before I submit another application form to NS. Ok. Again, I am not as desperate as what I write. It is always being exaggerated but the fundamental facts are still true though haha.

Tml, I will have dinner with Mdm Tay! Who helped me in editing personal statement as well as making my GP to be B! Bravooo!

People commented that, this pose cannot be made if they do not trust each other, I mean even one of them do not trust fully. Sooo.. Am I trying this pose with the wall in my room? hohohohohohoho rubbishyyy :D

Declare of diet war.

2011-03-13T17:09:00.001-07:00

Yea. It is time to go on a diet as if I have not been doing it. Anyway, I seriously should stop eating bread first. I eat bread more than rice. WTF.

And my double-choc muffin is already in my bag :( NONONONOONOONO!

Seriously, these two girls are kinda driving me crazy with their gorgeous looking face with hell hot body. Look at their legs. Freaked out.

Lovelylovelylovely! I better lose weight before I go to university so that I can enjoy 200% of my uni life!

Beside that, I am attached to cenntinental Asia? Sighhh cannot really remember the name for translating job, today and tml! Eggcited. Gonna translate something about report on N.K?? that is what I heard though.

Yesterday, I ate hellots with my dad in WATAMI! seriously all the foods there deserved to be eaten.

and lots of shopping with my dad! and without him hahah before he arrived, I already bought 2 shirts and one skirt! but anyway I just got money so let me feel rich for a little while longer. Off for my work! see you peeps <3

Soothing my mind ; Officially missing you by Geeks

2011-03-10T09:23:00.000-08:00

Let's Aiyo Together.

2011-03-09T06:53:00.001-08:00

This African-American Uncle is really LMAO. But that is exactly how I feel now.

I am kinda happy but in the end my face is like him. -,- Does it look similar????

Sigh. Life is Mundane now. And I know why all the working adults always sing for VACATION. Cause when I was student, I wanted either MC or public holiday. But now I want to pack and leave to somewhere for few days. You know those stuff happen so easily in the movie but not to me. Sigh. Going SEA even I am living in one part of SEA is not easy. I researched Phuket, Malaysia and Bintan. But well, not easy to really set and leave here. I have work, flute tuition and blahblah which does not solely depend on me now. When I was student, I could just skip school cause it does not harm anyone? alright affect. But now, If I do not go work, will I be fired??? and If I skip tuition, my students' parents will scold me......... right??? So I am just letting everything go. :( Such a loser.

But, I am really tired these few days. Like really. I did not meet anyone except my SD family with kind of intention hahahaha and we do not talk unnecessarily. I miss Ashley. :(

And I need Boyfriend or at least someone to flirt with like I have to act pretty and wait for SMSs at least. Who am I uploading photo for? haahahahah fuck. My phone is becoming like expensive watch :) oh should not forget its function as alarm clock too ♥ I thought I am pretty happy without anyone for awhile but I know I will be fine again after this shitty period hahahahhahahahahaha saddening laughter to act cool. I could not write any essays tonight! FFF Will write after this lalalalala. God. I need HIM whoever HIM is that. Or How much weight do I need to lose more to get one??? Do you distribute boyfriend like that???? :O !!!

sobsob.sobsob. Hope it will rain and thunder on their dating.

ABC/BD

2011-03-05T01:18:00.000-08:00

Uni pic that I can find hahahahah wtf

Ok. For kind information, though I am not proud at all with what I got, those who kindly visited my blog to stalk/find out about what I got for my A level results, look at the title.

I have variety of grades ranging from A to D. Great. I love variety but certainly not for my grades. Are you kidding me? giving such a variety to me. Hate that damn D. Damn.

Alright. But well. I didn't cry and thank god for that. I wasn't very sad & I wasn't very happy. I got what I expected. So, I just shall accept it. though fuck the physics. and Newton you too.

In conclusion, I am moving onto next phase and trying out all the routes possible. Secretly preparing all the necessary stuff (Secret revealed) hope it will help and consulting all the people that would give me good advice and got helpful advice from Boss Daniel Soh in choosing courses in different univ. I better get in. Like Seriousy and all my efforts better be paid off.

Staying in centre on Saturday kinda calm me down and Americano with Double Choc muffin really make me feel like I own the world and sorry a little exaggerated.

My dad is happy or rather relieved with my results. Especially, B for GP? Are you kidding me? My highest GP was D throughout my JC life. Thanks to uncles who loved my essay about International Aid. Love you. And my dad asked me whether I wanna go overseas as a tiny reward. Like alone??????? just get me Galaxy Tab will do dad.

I have to go back and continue my portfolio-ing. See you peeps. So no more sms for my results.

my boyfriend.your army.

2011-02-11T21:54:00.001-08:00

So.

Why the hell am I writing this post when I do not even have a thing called "my boyfriend, your army" from early in the morning. Serious have nothing to do. sad me. anyway, yeaaa it is army period now. like almost every single male that I have known in my life are kinda living together and wearing same costume and having PE lesson 24/7. I really do appreciate them for defending wherever I am living cause I still cannot imagine my life in army. So in return, I will give birth to 4 amazingly beautiful and handsome kiddos to protect the world. Fair. Done.

So.

How girls wait for their boyfriends in army? I understand it is kinda possible here in Singapore because they can come back home weekly but not Korean army. Alright. Fortunately, nowadays they do come out for holiday more often than before but still it is like 1 week in 3-5 months or longer than that probably. Do not ask me about this. I am not an expert certainly because I do not have one to wait for. Thank god.

I hate waiting and it seems impossible for me to wait for boyfriend who is defending the country. I SIMPLY CANT. I demand my boyfriend to defend me so gotta find who already officially defended the country for 2years. But wait. I want young and cute guys. So how the hell it is possible for me to find the guy who is younger than me yet he finished NS. So....... I should wait until I become min26years old and find someone like 23 years old. 5 years more to go. hahahhahahaha I am not laughing edderts.

Cheers to all the females waiting for their soldiers. I will take care of all my handsome-celeb-army on behalf of Korean population :) I certainly think that they should be protected by me. not they protect countries and this should be a joke. Whatever it is, this post is nothing to do with me as I highlight again, I HAVE NOT SENT ANYONE IN YET.

*Good Examples of Armyboyboyboys. :8)

ward♥(the heart shape supposed to mean "o")

2011-02-06T17:36:00.001-08:00

Ok. I am sharing my current wallpaper with whoever reads this.

effin smart guy with extreme well-made face. but he is those few guys who look better when he moves i mean in video rather than in the picture. cause many guys appeared to be handsome in photos but not in reality. many thanks to photoshop. anyway this garfield looks more handsome in the movie. I could not really get nice photos of him in google. shit u google.

So I watched Social Network like finally. As a Facebook user, I did not know there is this big story behind that website. Anyway yes everybody knows Facebook is more than something. because even I go to facebook more than 5 times for no reason. and ideal place to stalk. so please do not ever spread the apps called "finding stalker" I will be real embarrassed or not. I do not care much though *<*

D-7 to Singapore. I will be back to where I belong to. though my root is in Korea. After living in Singapore for 5 years and gonna be 15 years, I find myself more comfortable in there and of course people that I meet as well. I did not know it will happen to me but things happen.

I am so amazed by Mark Zuckerberg in Social Network. Not amazed by how smart he is cause certainly I could not understand what shit he was talking about all the codes, bites, bytes, website in the movie. But much amazed by the speed of his speaking?(alright. does not really make sense. I am saying he speaks like motorbike.) The pathetic subtitles could not keep a pace with Mark's lines in the show. hahaha. and of course my eardrum cannot vibrate fast enough to understand what the hell he is talking too.

Wardo, who was acting as Mark's the only friend really got my attention. Cause he looks handsome. Has perfect body. Smart. and his girlfriend was Asian in the show and this is just a joke. I mean his girlfriend was really asian in the show but that is not the particular reason why I am so in love with him. whatever. should I delete this para?

Miss you peeps. I thought I will write something that is more important and more interesting but always end up the same. CeeRAPee *M* see u soon.

How have you been.

2011-01-30T03:42:00.001-08:00

WOW. First post of 2011??????

Hi Peeps. long time no blog for simple reason. It was too cold for me to travel all the way to my room to update new post.

Alright. I am only left with approx 20% of my holiday in Korea. Sad much and excited much to go back to Singapore.

My life has been cool and smooth in Korea. I was busy learning Chinese and aiming to try HSK exam coming July or April. I will need lots of help from whoever can speak Chinese around me. Like Kimber higher Chinese peep whoo! Sher&Angie who used to make fun of my absurd Chinese hahaha Kinda excited much to take new language and so far learning Chinese has been kinda interesting and I am in love with their language. alright. not in love but trying to love <3>

I am currently teaching p6 kid English. It has been fun&satisfying. Though the student is a little too quiet...... please talk to me ._.

I bought new flute bag! and it is freaking niceeeeeeeeeeeeee <3>

Last but not least, I am pretty much very concerned about Egypt chaos. Actually not only Egypt chaos but all the tragic that are happening around the world. Volcano eruption in Japan, Flood in Pakistan, Brazil and Australia, Extreme cold weather in KOREA, Washington(48cm of snow? WTF) and blahblah. I hate to be pessimistic but I have to admit that I am :( only if I can save all these problems! I almost finished reading "The Lexus and the Olive tree" and learning more about globalisation. Undoubtedly, globalisation is much more than what I have learnt during econ lectures and those pros and cons are much more complicated and networked than that in the notes. and I am so amazed by the author. I find some parts of the book is kinda hard to understand for me as I am not so expert in financial system, stocks and bonds. but still it is great book! Gonna read his other books as well.

It's already gong xi fa cai next week and I am gonna leave my mom in few weeks. or yea in few days. fufufufufk. Feel so damn sad. I am gonna cry like mad :( sighsighsigh. Hate this say good bye stuff.

+I hate whenever I think about my A level results by accident. FFFF my brain. seriously dun think about it! :(

+ I am gonna meet my primary crush tml. Kinda feel weird though. as he is the first crush(excluding my kindergarten one hahaahahah wtf) in my life and I liked him for the longest period among all my countless crush-es. 5 years i guess from p1 to p5 hahahah of course in between there were some temporary sweethearts though. Wish me luck.

Adios 2010!

2010-12-30T23:52:00.001-08:00

Bye Bye 2010. though I do not feel much sadness or whatever. currently I am having stupid allergy all over my face. I did not eat prawn. I look like shit now.

Well. So let me rate my satisfaction of 2010. hmmmmmhmmmmm. ★★★☆☆ maybe. a little more or less than that.

I do not feel anything cause now I am kinda numb in all these special days. like Christmas,my birthday, last day or first day of the year. all these are just another day as I get older haha. sad much that now I am 2NE1 in Korea. still 19 in Singapore I guess. or 20 maybe?

Last few days, I planned some stuff in 2011. nothing much but yet important.

I went to meet my flute mentor who taught me for very long. I am gonna continue my flute lesson with her from next week. I want to continue my flute in 2011 as I stopped it due to A level. She introduced me her student who is korean but studying in Singapore! She asked me to teach her when I go back to Singapore. Actually I am supposed to teach her from 2 years ago but yea, stupid A level did not allow me to. so hope this time I can teach her! I am very motivated :D Maybe I will try to study for the flute certificate exam as well if I have no special plan :)

Next, gonna continue my chinese in Singapore and will follow youngyi's sister tuition centre most likely.

Next, INTERNSHIP. This is the most important thing! Hope I can work in the place where Daniel arranged for me and if not I will work under him hahaha.

Ok peeps. I had more plan but kinda forget. stupid brain. ohoh and I am gonna bake more and more to give all the loving people around me :) and gonna try Sandwich too!

One happening.
-As I said, I went to meet my flute mentor and we lived nearby when I was in primary school.(I moved house in p5.) so we were like neighbourhood and her son was my grademate(not close but same grade hahaha) in primary school. So she told me how are all my schoolmates now as I could not contact them after I moved house in p5. anyway, and there goes, my primary crush hahahaahh I was innocent then. Let's call him J. I liked him from the first day of primary school like P1. We were in the same class and he was damn handsome that time. So I liked him very much and he is the guy who I liked for the longest. which is not possible to me now. hahaahah. I liked him from like P1 till P5 (until I move house and find new crush in new school. of course during P1 to P5 I had some other crush in between though. cute primary peep.) sooo yesterday I went to search his korean facebook, cyworld, and I found him! His name is so special that no other guy has same name as him in Korea. WTF. and I added him and he left some message and blahblah. ok. it is just another primary friend stuff. but feel kinda great to find out how is he now :) though HE HAS GF already. but it is alright cause he is gonna go NS in March. Sad much. another guy. :( This is crappy but just wanted to write for myself and to commemorate my innocent love life in primary hahaha. I will write more if any funny thing happen.

-I sent my letter to my another primary school friend who is currently NS man :( gosh.
I realised that pretty bitchy girls are not my rivals. but NS is. Give me back all my friends lalalalaalalalalal.

so. Adios 2010. and helloooo bitch 2011. may all my/your/his/her/grannys/puppys/bitches/hunks wishes come true peace!

2011 Wishlist♥

2010-12-20T19:43:00.001-08:00

Alrighty. The weather is much warmer thesedays but my fingers are still freezing as I type this.

So my weekend was wonderful with my mom and sister. We went out to shop and we took part in some annual wishlist christmas event thingy and hung our tiny wishes on public christmas tree? haha. Anyway my wishlist always goes the same.

WISHLIST.

2011.

1.Let me be a smartass

2.My family must stay healthy.

3.I want to be Gazillionaire.

4.Let me be a skinny bitch before I am too old to be a bitch.

5.Bless all the peeps that I know.

6.You better send me my another half ? who is desperately looking for me in somewhere else.

These 6 wishes never change. so practically my wishlist in 2005=2006=2007=2008=2009=2010=2011=++++++2100.

Sigh. I am sure half of the population share my wishes too. Anyway it feels kinda good to start new year. though today I had sudden nightmare of my A level results. Fuck you! ok. I really should ban my tongue from saying F. I hate it very much so I need some alternative for my itchy tongue like Foot Fish Fuk Fik whatever. So this year my diary is RED. and my love towards red is kinda back. ok not important.

I miss my life in Singapore. Especially SUSU. This woman is really someone in my life man! hahahahahaha and my room. Gloria Jeans. all my summer clothes. Winter clothes are kinda heavy to wear it on as I already have difficulty carrying my body alright. but to add on I feel like wind is slapping my cheeks like mad. It is painful. argh.

Ok. Go back to serious stuff?! hahaha my 2011 better be wonderful. but sadly everything depends on A level results and this is very much clear. There are tons of things that I want to do when I am back in Singapore but I am pretty much sure when I am actually back, I will be damn lazy to do all the stuff that I've planned. sigh sigh. I better not. Like I am gonna continue my Chinese lesson in Singapore, gonna run everyday (I realised it is too difficult to make myself smaller in Korea. full of food.), write much, read much, meet peeps and so on. Oh. I want to cook too! cook everything with Sweet Potato <3

And the most important thing is my last wishlist. Alright. Santa kinda heard me last year so 2010 I was not alone for entire year but anyway more than half I was halved?hahahaahah this expression is fishfunny I feel. anyway, as what people said to date someone we must have TIME and I cannot disagree with this. Last year was such a hectic year with my toomanyboyfriends like chemistry, maths and econ not to mention. but I am set free now. So santa, please consider me and stop me from being halved.

To make your job easier, ta-daaah.

Tall, hand-somefoot-some, smartass, having enough money to go fish&co with me♥, has urge to communicate with me in korean, LOVE TO WALK&READ and NON LAZY GUY.

It is personal tastes and this is my personal space. so please censor yourself when you read. anyway, I love walking so, my handsomefootsome will/better/must have stupidly long sexy legs with no hair hahahahaha ohhhh. most important thing. No beggar hair. (those long hairs that stimulate me to shave all :-)

Crappy much again but enjoyed writing. anyway see you and I know how to spell zaizzien now. It is Jai Jian :)

Secret Garden.

2010-12-19T15:43:00.001-08:00

Do I have to say more?

winter.

2010-12-16T20:12:00.001-08:00

New sweet drama that is gonna drive me nut. currently screwed enough by Secret Garden. It must be national drama.

Alright. So how is my life. I think I did not write any new post ever since I ve started learning chinese or around that anyway. So the weather is kinda crazy. too cold to survive but I know the region that I am living is one of the warmest region in Korea. WTF. so I am blessed still. Two days ago, I went to do my hair! but guess what. I did not do anything except cutting it short. The hair dresser said my hair is DEAD. WTH? He said the chemical?! that Singaporean hair dresser used to perm my hair practically killed my hair. FML. So the guy was honest enough to tell me that I should add my nutrition and fertiliser? hahahah to my hair and make it to stay alive first. So I am gonna go to the shop once every 15 days for treatment! I love it anyway. And after that, if my hair comes back to her life, then I will perm and cut it even shorter.

Why am I soooo lazy to even update my blog?!! Goddamn! I cannot resist the TV! and it is too cold to type on my lappy. my hands are freezing. I will write more sooner or later. Love you SUSU hahahaah

Life in Korea.

2010-12-03T09:09:00.001-08:00

alright. Everything has been great. except the fact that I am getting lazier and lazier. sigh much. I am taking 3 naps a day and watching tv for more than 7 hours. So total I guess I am awake for like 8 hours at most? hahaha and try to squeeze three meal for 8 hours. How awesome is that? I am gonna transform into humanic pig at any time. Time to warn myself.

#Learning Chinese.

As I told my peeps, I am gonna learn Chinese real soon. Not in the tuition centre around my house cause I am sure they are gonna put me in the class full of primary school kids. absolute absence of hot guys who are eager to learn chinese. not even a girl friend I guess. so I have kind of decided to go town to learn Chinese but unsure whether my mom is gonna allow me to learn there. They find it far. but I guess I have to get my ass out of my house and put layers of make up to look pretty. if not I will end up like some zombie. do not like it.

#Hot Yoga vs Fitness Centre.

Alright. Sadly, swimming is out of a discussion. Why? firstly, I forgot bring my new swimming suit! What a waste. NEW one. which I was soo eager to wait. But I left it nicely in my Singapore house. So gone case. Secondly, the time that I want to attend, which is around 9 am in the morning class will be full of aunties. which I cannot easily get along with. so it is officially out. byebye.

My mom is suggesting me to learn, Hot Yoga or just join her Fitness Centre. I do not mind both but I personally prefer running. So well, I will think about it over the weekend. Hot Yoga, fyi, it is doing yoga in hot sauna. What the hell. Damn hot and creative I guess. but, I do not know how effective it will be to lose weight. We will see.

#Catching up with Gina!

I am gonna meet her after her exam. which is like 10 days from now. anyway, we are finally able to drink together. No doubt, I will ask her to bring some hot friends when we subsequently meet up for drinks. hahaahah If she has any to share with me. Miss her to the core. I cannot wait to listen to all the stories and gossips! We will have some serious talk about our future too. Love it much. IMU and ILY.

#Studying in New Zealand?

My dad suggested to me during supper tonight with my mom and dad. hmmm. not bad after all. Cause frankly, I am kinda bored of Singapore. It is indisputably wonderful place, which I consider it as my second hometown. No offence, but most of foreigners dislike the place due to various factors. But I still love the place and studying in Singapore was the best choice that I made in my life so far. Admitted by my friends and families too. Ok. Enough of defence. my point is that, I want to study somewhere else. I just feel that, studying uni in Singapore with assumption that I can enter one of uni, is just gonna be another 4 years of JC and Secondary school. My mom said, that is just over generalisation and I have to experience before I conclude like that. She said uni in Singapore is gonna be fun! Like yea, I agree but hmmmm. I just want something different. So, my dad suggested NZ as my alternative destination and we will see. Nothing is confirmed yet.

#Conclusion.

Kinda love this post. Well-organised I feel. Tml is weekend and gonna see dentist for my wisdom teeth. Need to pluck 4 of them out. WTF. ouch. and still thinking about the coffee factory guy. I guess he really had some great impact on me. sighsigh. but know nothing about him. but well. I am happy right now. My sister is gonna sleep soon. gotta get my ass off from the bad. so bye world. see you again.

Personal Tastes of Olly.

2010-12-02T07:35:00.001-08:00

Well. "Olly wants to be in love" is the main topic of this post. Seriously, winter makes me feel like falling in love! It is too cold to stay alone like seriously again and again to emphasise. And, today that moment in Coffee Factory kinda fuelled my feeling as well :)

Previously, I loved guy who is young and preferably younger, cute, tall and sexy more or less. Yes, sounds demanding much but do not worry, they are just an ideal which deviate a lot from the reality. Alright. But now as I grow older, my tastes are changing as well. kinda slowly though.

I always did not have much fantasy in older guy and guys with DSLR especially. However, come to think of it, dating someone who is older, more mature, capable and ambitious (personally, hate lazy, not-ambitious and stupid guys) just sound so damn wonderful. Of course, with careful assumption that they look decent too. I know. I have to be like that to get guys with such standards. I just do not want to have boyfriend who is not mature and vain. I want who is considerate, mature and have happy family as well. Cause, I believe that only those who get enough love from people know how to give love to others. I have been experiencing this so it is a fact.

In Coffee Factory cafe with my deary friends, this one guy with DSLR on his shoulder, one book in his hand, nice-edge jacket with a pair of long legs entered. He sat in front of us and was facing me which does not mean anything of course hahaahah. anyway, he started reading his book and looked kinda serious. Indulged in the book. nice word to describe. Anyway, he kept looking at our direction and I feel that cause we three are so damn noisy hahaah. yes we are. After awhile, when I told my friend some joke, this guy suddenly smiled like laughing to himself as I was telling this joke to entire cafe.(exaggeration involved. I was not that loud lalalala) He looked so cute. And he definitely is older than me. I fantasize much guy who read a lot and not afraid or yea feel embarrassed to go into cafe alone to read book. They look awesome. cause I love to do that too. Having quite reflection time in the cafe is such a great way to meditate. Alright. Sadly, or expectedly, nothing happen. But I just love that "Pit-a-pat" moment that I did not feel for quite long period I guess.

I seriously feel that I should go out more so that I will be able to entertain my eyes. and I am gonna start to work out either in swimming pool or in sauna doing Hot Yoga :) Cannot wait!

In conclusion, I have to be awesome to get awesome half. I still have strong belief in faith.

many words from me.

2010-11-25T19:01:00.001-08:00

Ok. Sorry for the overwhelming picture to begin the post. I just kinda like it.

So. Is breaking-up season coming up? Alright. I do not think there are many ppl following my blog so I am gonna write things that I feel like. No censorship hoho. FB is such a fucking assholic place after the break-up. No offence to all the couples who break up recently or long time ago or whoever who are preparing to break up. Gosh. What the hell am I writing????? hahahahahhahaha

Crazy picture needs some kind of crazy post so alright. I am the person who is very curious about all the reasons why people do break-up? This sounds busybody? but I really want to find out cause seriously there are thousands of different reasons in this world why do people break-up. And nobody will understand why others break-up because of some stupid reason when their own reasons are more spastic. ._. Of course I am out for this discussion and have no intention to use myself as an example to elaborate and add evaluation to this brainless stuff. I just find this very interesting to crap and bullshit about.

Personally, I am not really fond of communicating with boyfriend (alright. If I have one, to clear the misunderstanding or any doubt) via facebook or that blue bird. I mean there is nothing bad about it or anything good about it. but hmmmmm...

Sorry peepssss I am out of focus now ahahhahaha shit. Alright. I admit I suck in writing post under this topic. cause it is kinda non of my business. I am only good in bullshitting about my own stuff sigh much. Susu is though good at writing this stuff. Hope she will produce one good piece on this. I had so much things to say but well I am lost in my own essays hahaahahha FFF!

Alright. now, back to my private story,

Susu and Sausage were right that I am gonna forget/be alright/fine when A level is over. Though there was kind of many repetitive Cling and I thought of patching back like hundreds of times but I knew that it will end up the same due to same reasons. So there is still no regret but kinda was full of sadness. Thinking of u being kind and sweet to other peeps like how you did to me was good enough to make me feel jealous and hateful. But now, as all the shitty things like A level is ending and as now I have more time for myself, I am kinda starting to believe that I can forget about you. I mean how to forget unless I have some disease and I have extremely good memory for god sake wtf hahahahaha. but moving on lalalala I was a little too heavy to move on hahaha but u knowwww I am gonna lose weight(my ultimate reason for going back to korea) so that I can move on faster hahaha and make new peeps here and there fill your space with some other beautiful things that are available in this world, I will try lol No harm trying.

Hmm. Another reason for me to write this stuff beside just to make myself feel better, I find myself kinda disgusting whenever I see myself trying to continue some kind of meaningless relationship with you by clinging or wanting you to care about me when I am kind of nothing now. so I just hate myself whenever I do that without being conscious. So this is kinda warning letter to myself. I do not want it anymore. Do not want to try hard my ass off to get some attention from you when you have your girlfriend. I find myself toooo bitchy and feel sorry to your girlfriend. Though I just tried to be friend, there is no such thing I guess. people will just laugh at it. So this post is not to blame anyone or mock anyone but rather to end my sad emo life and start my bling bling new life.

Alright. I felt very sad to delete every trace of you in my handphone, laptop and album. but well I did. So physically, memory of you are successfully and finally deleted. To add on, I am prepared to set you free and ready to start second phase of my life in 3days. Wish me luck, loved you <3

P.S. I don't know how long will this post survive in my blog though.

INDEPENDENCE DAY OF OLLY

2010-11-23T16:14:00.000-08:00

This is how mommy lion carry her baby lion. fyi, they said it is not painful at all so don't worry people. Anyway, the tiny lion is so damn cute. I want to adopt it man. But it will grow bigger than me at anytime I guess. so zzaizzien.

INDEPENDENCE DAYYYYYYYYYYYY.
Alright I have one tiny paper left that I want to ignore so much. But ECON IS DONE. FFF GOD. I am extremely happy. I do not need to write anymore essays????? Like are you serious? But I did not throw away any notes. because.................... you know.

Went out with my mom to Orchard from ION all the way too 131? 313? whatever I can't seem to remember. And bought a lot of stuff which made me sooo happy and made me to forget about all the shitty thingz happened in last few weeks. Power of shopping or Power of my mom? both lalalalaala.

And tml is ZOO OUTING with my lovely dovely peep SHER AND ANGIE <3>
I am praying for nice weather though. Sun, you can go and rest for a while. gotta plan later with them via smsmsmsmsmssms :D

Alright. Serious Issue. Stupid N.Korea. A lot of ppl seem to make fun of this incident on the facebook as it is not their issue but shut the fuck up seriously. I was so scared when ms chong smsed me about this to me because I was in the bus on the way to home with my mom and the first thing came to my mind was, "Fuck. My sister????". The bomb was not targeted to mainland but still YeonPyungDo(the place that they bomb) is still Republic Of Korea for god sake and 2 navy died because of this cruel unreasonable attack. Fuck you bitch seriously. Even, during the war, there is implicit agreement between the countries that "Don't ever attack powerless, innocent lives who are not even equipped with any weapons." But ironically, they did attack only innocent people cause that stupid people do not know where the hell important parts are located in YeonPyungDo. Fuck you. You guys are just terrorist. Nothing more than that. T E R R O R I S T who kill those innocent lives. Feel really sad for two navy men who are supposed to enjoy their lives. Sigh. Hope nothing get worse from now including my mom's stock. wth.... she is worried cause the stock price is down down down down. sigh mommyyyyyyyyy!!

Currently, not feeling very well. Sudden absence of nervousness in my body is kinda making me feel ill. whatever it is I am gonna rest. bye peeps.

ello

2010-11-17T05:13:00.000-08:00

Alright. in this pic, my dear love looks a little foxy? like very bitchy? whatever I love you lalaala.

Anyway, let's start my report. A level just sux. Such a screw driver that screw everything. Cambridge uncles really u guys are just hmmmmmmmmmmm. U don't need to be so creative and drive us crazy during papers dear. sigh. super sigh. They want to earn money from us by making us to retake A!!!!!!!!!! RIGHT? or not. anyway whatever it is, no paper is satisying. That is the conclusion. Like really. After the paper, I always feel like I didn't wipe my ass after I shit. U get I mean? It is very dirty comparison but well that's exactly HOW I FEEL PEOPLE :) So. Yes. what to do now? I have physics paper tml afternoon. God Please bless me. You know my physics sucks. All the theories that I should appreciate soo very much do not seem logical to me and worse I just cannot comprehend all the facts. well. no point cursing physics. sigh.

My parents are out to have dinner with my guardian couples. I wanted to follow but thanks to physics :) go and die right now. Anyway, I kinda had good meal ever since my dad came. I had Swensen's earles, Thai Expresssswayyy and just booked JUMBO and they are almost fully booked. Nuts. Why are they so famous man.

Hmmm. Kinda happy that some of my male buds are going NS in May hhohohoho. and I am happier that I do not even need to go. Alright.

Ok. Back to physics. Bye loves <3

HelloWorld.

2010-11-03T08:00:00.000-07:00

Feel like buying Bra for hongki hahahaahahah sorry dear.

Hello Peeps. 4 days left. Hate to count this kind of stuff though. Anyway, well my mom is going to come very soon and she is extremely cute. Why am I saying this. Because she told my sister that "I am bringing a lot of stuff for ur sis, so I have no space in my bag to put my things like bags and clothes. SO I AM GONNA BUY IN SINGAPORE" Wth????????? MOM?????????
Alright. She is cute <3

Well. Today I did not go school because I am sick and tired of school though I miss my peeps there hoho. I had so much fun with them recently having dinner tgt and study tgt. Great. Tml I will be back in school as one of the last day before exam. WTH. Alright. That is about it. Fyi, I was tired until I slept in uniform yesterday night. Goodness. Feel Fresh Now. Slowly gaining back my confidence for my chem like slowly..............................................................................very slow. and gonna do vector cause I am rubbish in vector. F. Could not do any questions. k thx bye.

OMG nanhua-ya :(

2010-10-29T06:00:00.001-07:00

Poor baby eleph-

This is tragic in the Elephant world man :( alright. The story goes like, this eleph family went to tiny pond?river?whatever water to drink water. When this baby eleph dipped its nose into water, that cunning crocodile bited baby eleph's nose :( but eleph family quickly gathered to help baby eleph and crocodile gave up to eat baby eleph. Then eleph family continued to enjoy their picnic :) alright. hahaahahahah epic man. why the hell am I translating and even reading about this article??? All because of NanHua hahahaahahahah love u bb

WTF

2010-10-27T04:32:00.001-07:00

niceweathersunday.

2010-10-23T22:21:00.001-07:00

Alright. I shall continue another half of my story for a day. anyway, nowadays I have automatic saturation point. When I feel like vomiting in Gloria Jeans means I am done for a day. Seriously, feel very gross but I realised that it has been like that for last few days. haha. Today, I had Very Vanilla Chiller like DUH and had Lasagne sadly no chicken mushroom but instead Beef Spinach. It was not as disgusting as what it sounds like. Anyway, now I have 2 boyfriends in Gloria Jeans. The new one is kinda hot except hmmmm. I do not want to write it here. I do not want to be racist?! Is the reason tooo obvious? Whatever, I do not understand what am I writing too.

Beside that, hmmhmm nthing much happened. but well SERIOUSLY my happiness of finishing this long journey of A LEVEL in a month outweighs all my stress+nervousness+allthefkingshit. I really feel happy now and cannot wait to finish this stupid thing. LIKE REALLY :)

Though, I do not have some grand plan like 10 Things to do in Korea. The most definite thing that I am gonna do is BE Bee Eee Aee I U Tee Ful. I want to lose weightttttt so badly. I cannot wait to run on the track seriously. When I come back next year, I am gonna be different OLLY. I decided to forget all the things people and moments that I want to forget in last 5 years of my life in Singapore. (Of course I will never forget about good things like Susu and Seri and Seri and blahblah) And my project to find my Beef Cake in Singapore will launch next year. Yayyyyyyyyy. Sponsored by two other pathetic super single Seri and Susu hahahahaahha shit. Alright. Whatever. I just find it entertaining to write all these craps down.

Recently, this one thing bothers me a lot. I really feel that I am extremely selfish. Why I feel so fa;lfkjalkjfslkj about it? It is not even my business. right. Like what Susu said, that was my necessity. nothing more or less than that right. Need affirmation Ms Viet Dong. sighghghgghghghgh. higahigahiga~

I am not gonna think about it anymore. SOOMBBA. ⅲ (my three fingers!) and byebye foreverrrrrrrrrrrrr it will be the first thing that I would like to delete from my head though it was one of the happiest moment in my life. Jjaijjien.

Love the weather. little drizzling. It is gonna be another fruitful day with Very Vanilla Chiller. My bag is packed. Gonna finish everything with 100% efficiency. I guess you can feel that my mood is good. Recently, my mood is kinda stable and good. hohoho. see you peeps. Will upload the rest if I am not tired l8r. xoxo.

Woolalalala

2010-10-23T06:23:00.001-07:00

Hello peeps. It is Saturday night. and I am back from Gloria Jeans! Alright. Let me sum up what happened today for those minority who might might might want to know what did I do today hahahah eg.Woodland bb hermit will be more than interested or not.

Morning was Maths much with Jack. I irritated him quite a lot by keep attacking him hoho Sorry, I irritate ppl when I like them so bear with it you are blessed. After that, I went to have Popoyessss. I am having it almost every week. Not very good for my health but yet it is too nice. I do not like KFC anymore sirosly. There Coleslow??? (spelling seems wrong? slow??) is freaking nice. Love it. After hermitious lunch with my mp3, headed to VIVO Gloria Jeans! Ordered Very Vanilla Chiller! Thesedays I am drinking only cold beverage. I used to love hot coffee though. Anyway, ohhh before that Went to Provence to buy my favorite bread and guess what! I found Orange Muffin which I could not find anywhere!! I love Orange muffin seriously. It is freaking nice. But they disappointed me. Being small size is one disappointment and it was too sweet :( Could not feel that freshness that I was looking for. Anyway, yea people will ask me to go and bake myself if I keep complaining. I love Provence still.

Alright. Stayed in Gloria Jeans from 2 to 8. My efficiency only started aroung 0330?? Actually, I was very sleepy today so in between I had to play diamond twister game in my phone. (The only play-able game in my lolilolipop.)

After Gloria, went to River Island to get some stuff for my Friend (Barbie hahaha) and went to Giant to buy some Yogurt and Ice Lemon Green tea.(I dunno whether this is correct sequence or maybe it is Ice Green Lemon tea?)

ASHLEY CALLED ME. Nobody knows how much I miss her. Miss her tttttttm. She is freaking princess in USA now. All the guys are in love with her goodness. Seriously, it was just SINGAPORE who did not appreciate her beauty especially some bitches who were soooo jealous of her beauty. Anyway, she is in big continent now with tons of hot guys. She continued her love story in US which made me feel so excited! :) gonna keep it to myself and maybe SUSU :)

and now I am finally back. Oh. When I almost reached house, I saw my maid threw away the rubbish and once she saw me she jumped? run? (like some kid) towards of course not me, towards the house cause she wants to use toilet before me. Such a Bitch. But I understand you. So to take revenge, I sang out loud to disturb her bathing or maybe I provided her nice BGM? Whatever go and die bitch. Hate you to the max.

Oh. Auntie Lin cleaned room for me! Like she really threw away all the unnecessary stuff that I will never throw away if nobody throw away for me. I AM LIKE THAT. hahahahaah. I really appreciate it soooooooooooo much. I do not know what to say seriously. She is so nice. THANKS AUNTIE LIN. Gotta show off to my mom and she actually SAVED me from my mom. Cause if she did not help me clean, I would never clean and I will be dead meat once my Mom Jess hahaahah shit sounds funnny, enters my room. So She is Saint for a day! :)

Alright that is about it. Oh. and yesterday was my class clique? outing which I had so much fun. Really it was fun. I want to elaborate but I think it is going to be too long and actually it was all about WASABI and SCISSOR PAPER STONE! so I am gonna keep it into my heart?! haha

Actually, I was wanting to write about "CONTRADICTION". It is about, me loving smart and guys who I can respect (in terms of height, wisdom, general knowledge hahahaahh) but yet I love young and cute guys who are UNLIKELY to be like the former. (I did not say never alright. No offence to all the young kids who are young and cute but yet smart and wise whatever shit.) It is dilemma. hahahahhaha whatever olly. just go and find momentum for the plank on the pivot A for physics. Shhsh! Seeyoupeeps.

P.S. This post is kinda long cause SOMEONE WITH PINK TRADITIONAL COSTUME AND BROWN HAIRBAND PROPOSING TO SOME UNCLE is not happy that I write soooo little when she created a lot of beauty. (Only she will understand so those who do not create beauty just ignore this.) so this post is again dedicated for that someone.

[The picture is not necessarily related to P.S. part and I just find this couple very sweet. The girl must be in crazy love with the guy in the blue :)]

D-1 ex-Innovian.

2010-10-21T07:12:00.001-07:00

wow. Time flies. I remember I was J1 last year. and now I am graduating. Epic. Feel weird. Come to think of it, I really enjoyed school life except lectures :) I loved to make my peeps laugh esp susu and sausage. sigh. sorry. I am too tired to elaborate now after spending 7 hours in Gloria Jeans. Gotta save my word for tml then. hmmhmm. feel real weird. sigh. I am ex- now man. alright. Real tired. vyevye.

distraction vs motivation.

2010-10-19T08:39:00.001-07:00

Guys are the best distraction but yet the best motivation in my life. by olly.

(SuSu! Do not try to correct my grammar in this nice and sexy statement hmmhmm!)

I just fee like writing that sentence cause it says all about me. Hate them for distracting me (there are still guys in "real life" that distract me though not for the time being I guess) but yet if there ain't any hot guys there will be one less reason for me to pursue my life yea? I feel so thankful that I am born as an opposite gender of all the hot guys as I appreciate all your hotness. such a cause of global warming. but I will blame china for that. <3

Thank you for living same generation as me truly sincerely haahaahahahaha.

Alright. Real post starts from here. I stayed back in school with my class peeps till 0830? yea. just finished bathing. and dropped by to debrief about my day. feel stressed. alright not much of stress but rather scared for not being scared of the exam. I do not feel that there are 19 days left for me to cover entire syllabus. nuts. alright. my mom told me I can do it. Everybody says that I can do it except myself. stupid ass. Alright I can do it lalalaalalalla. I am sure I am less bold than when I took O level. After going through O level, stupid past experience always hold me back and make me to be less confident and brave. Hate this but cannot help yet. alright. everything is alright I am keep using alright even when it is not alright. Wtf? I shall ban the word ALRIGHT.

Everybody seems ready for A level yea? Esp Barry lol I want to meet and have a tea session so badly and ask him how the hell he got 99/100 for math p1, 99.5/100 for maths paper 2 and 23/25 for econ essays. SUPER SMART NUTS. haha.

Today PX smsed me to give him some advice for bgrrrr (can I write this here? hahaahaahaha) I am not gonna elaborate since I do not feel it is right thing to do but hope my advice helped him to make a decision. Your Da Jie is still alive man. hahaha. He is gonna be out of NS next month. Cannot wait to see all the ntss F4 next year? hahaah still long way to go.

Alright. Let us stop here. and few words for susu.

Dear, Ok (this is ur sirname btw) Susu. a.k.a. the darkest fire flies on the earth.

Hello darling. of course to rebut the beauty that you created, I shall leave some words for you. you have a reason to live cause there are so many people who love you care about you and mock (it's me!) you. Their lives including mine are much better with your presence. That is how you make the earth better place. I know you have night emo session but please lalalalalalalaalalal bitchy jen (sounds like some aunty jen) is enough to make your life dark right. with the help of sobaboy in the school. I mean life is actually not as meaningful as what we think anyway. although ur dear koki looks damn motivated and look like she is flooded with all the dreams anyway sometimes everything doesn't matter to me you know! having Very Vanilla Chiller in Gloria Jeans and gossiping about ppl and stalking my boyfriend (hahahaha did not expect him to appear in my blog though) and watching youtube in my house with a bottle of Pokka milktea WITH YOU matters more to me and that is the time I feel the happiest Like SIROSLY. I feel a little emotional here hahahahahaha gonna burst into tears (wow nice expression man). I hate to see you in sad state and when I am worried for you, you are gonna say "It's okay la. It's like that la. Actually I am fine la." Whatever lalalalalaa. but I know you are not fine. You always save me from shitty state remember <3>

P.S. Look how happy you used to be. even your santa hat is standing up hahaah the only standing up hat. you are epic and SPECIAL from very very long time ago!

Hi peeps!

2010-10-18T07:17:00.001-07:00

Hi peeps. LTNS. This is Long Time No See. anyway, gonna write short and sweet post with fucking sweet picture above. goodness. why it looks so sweet in drama while if I see normal couples doing that feel kinda gross. too bad. hope I can live in the drama. well simply impossible unless I have that kind of handsome creature in my life.

Alright. I am fine now. Not very moody bur still tired. I do not feel lonely anymore since my mom is coming. I am over with that shitty feeling. thank god. hmm. and yea I just had lesson with Jack but today lesson was more towards life lesson he told me a lot of stories hahahaha. and I am back in my room doing NYJC maths paper. gotta finish by thursday hopefully since I want him to mark for me. I hate self-marking and peer-marking. Alright. My life is not very bad but still feel very scared of A level. It will be over soon and I heard O level paper will start next week. gosh it was just 2yrs ago. ffffff. I do not want to think about it hoho. alright peeps have a great evening <3

<

2010-10-11T07:45:00.001-07:00

FUCKKKK I love you more than anyone. I can give you my kidney, heart, liver and pancreas. Please take all darling <3 My next boyfriend is gonna be like that! Just a saying. low probs or maybe no probs.

Anyway, monday simply sucks! Alright frankly I was fine until last period of the lessons but that H1 compulsory consultation killed me. I literally stoned during the lesson and absorb like 18% only. sigh sigh sigh. But I gotta tell you that I am very tired. I slept late yesterday! I know I must sleep before 12 no matter what but I guess I will not be able to sleep early again today due to tml chem mock exam which is going to waste my time, waste papers, waste teachers time to mark and blah blah. nothing will be saved. and Fuck. I remember something. my AQ. shit this is fuck man. I really just realised shit the fffffffffffffff.

I am just back from lesson with Jack which drilled me for like 2+ hours. His house is very bigggggg. It is like the biggest house that I ve ever visited in Singapore. (I did not visit many houses though) anyway, went through my mistakes and yea I am tired. Epic tired. :(

I do not want to go to school but yet there are still so many things that I have to learn from the teachers. Hate this man!

Bye people. wanted to continue writing but my pathetic AQ (sobaboy! :() and chem mock exam. mock mock mock! I swear I cannot do much about it anyway but I do not regret for going lesson with Jack today cause I did not want to leave my hypothesis dangling around my brain until next week. At least I cleared it. well. In long run, giving up on my chem mock exam (without my intention :(////) will be paid off somehow LALALALALALALALAALALALALALALALAALALA. I just want to believe in that way. Bye peeps. I am so full. just finished drinking coffee coke grape juice milk tea. What else? Nuts koki!

yayyyy!

2010-10-09T04:41:00.001-07:00

Yayyyy

1.Maximum INefficiency fml!

2.beside no.1 efficiency, nothing bad things happened during last few days.

3.Had great day with susu yesterday and finally she came to stay over. btw a lot of things happened in my room. Susu you better be nice to me Ms Pants :)

4.Had nice lunch yesterday with Jack and I am gonna bring my mom to there! the food is just two thumbs up. and he is nice :)

5.Had Sushi Tei alone hahaah epic shit. Anyway, I needed soba(sobaboyyy) and salmon so badly and had extra unagi sushi too. Gosh. I guess my passion for Salmon and soba outweigh the embarrassment of eating alone in Sushi Tei. Whatever it is I am satisfied.

6.Bread shopping! woohoo nice man <3

my weekend starts now.

2010-10-07T08:48:00.001-07:00

Hello baby. you are the best now.

Went to Kimber's house after the school to study! there is empty room in her house which we can study together! The room is really niceeeeeeeeeeeeeee Like it to very large extent hahahaha. It was very efficient as we concentrated very much on our work :) had dinner in her house and her parents are always very friendly and nice! hmm.hmm :)

I am sick and tired so no more school this week. WHEE! I am kinda happy that I am still alive after going through so many things from last week. I am kinda slowly recovering and guess what or did I already mention in my blog that MY MOM IS COMING? hahahaha anyway let me say it again if I mentioned. hohoho. She will come 4days before my first paper to accompany me throughout the paper and I feel more supported :) I am gonna study hard and tml I will meet kimber to study tgt in Gloria Jeans miss their coffee! alright. Gonna finish up my physics tonight. See you peeps!

SHIT HE IS FUCKING HOT :)

P.S. that 2 disgusting malay guys in clementi who whistled and sang some weird songs to me thank you very much fuck you!

Chat with primary crush.

2010-10-05T08:19:00.001-07:00

Wow. I got friend request in my korean facebook from my primary crush aka one of my few best male friend. What a long name to describe. Anyway, it was so good to talk to someone that I liked and missed so much :) I liked him for like 2yrs I guess? He was witty nice handsome tall blah blah. He is still the same and sweet hahaha. He told me that I am the only normal female friend as now he is in Sports univ where he cannot find any normal female haahah he said they are very scary and aggressive. We chatted for like an hour and caught up with a lot of stuff like how have we been doing, how's life all that stuff.

Sad to say, he is going NS in 20 October. What is the problem man! Harry just went NS in September. Now Tae kyung (his name) is going NS again like WTH. I would not even be able to meet them next year in Korea gosh :( Sad case! He said he will be having holiday from NS after first 100days so hope we can meet up by then :) though he hates to show me that army military look hahhahahah. epic. Well, next year is going to be kenny's turn :x

Alright. It feels really nice to talk to old friend as we did not contact each other for like last 3-4years. and I am surprised that actually he remembers me and found me in cyworld cause there are hundreds of Kim Young Ah there. He said he just made account haha alright I am kinda in good mood now after talking to him and thus will go and study hard for quantum physics. see you peeps.

P.S. My mom is seriously thinking about coming to Singapore to take care of me. I am thinking should I ask her to come???? I miss her :(

-

2010-10-04T05:11:00.001-07:00

Crying is becoming my daily routine and I cannot even call my mom because I know that I am going to cry like mad when I am on the phone. I am stuck. I want to kill myself. I am going through this hard time by myself so please whoever disturb irritate harm me please fuck off before I treat you as rubbish. I miss my mom. That is all. I do not want to cry anymore. Fuck my life. This is getting serious but there is no way out. Nobody understands.

JONG HYUNNNNNNNNNNNN Koki loves u :~

2010-10-03T05:35:00.000-07:00

SE7EN - IM GOING CRAZY (Susu will love it :~)

2010-10-02T18:06:00.000-07:00

SHINee-Hello (Jonhhyun's hair is back!!!!!)

2010-10-01T04:12:00.000-07:00

OMG. Jong hyun's hair is back and I love his perf costume! with his wide shoulder that shirts suits him perfectly. gosh. and why the hell taemin's hair is some old uncle pleaseeeeeeeeee :(

OMG. Jong hyun is effin hot here. love uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu <3

For the sake of Susu's convenience ((MISS A-BREATHE))

2010-09-27T01:08:00.000-07:00

Nudge Nudge.

2010-09-25T06:47:00.001-07:00

THAT'S OKAY???? Of course getting 'D' for chem is not okay! haahahahahahahahahaha let me defend and comfort myself by saying I gave god damn one day to revise chem. I deserve it rightttttt. The chem dept has rights to punish me righttttttttttt. Of course That's not okay! Ok. I feel relieved after complaining much kthxbye.

Hohohohohoho. Today I went for the run! It feels great. I could feel the wind!(Wtf? hahahah trying to be some runner in the movie, let me be). Anyway, the weather in the afternoon was friendly enough for me to go and run around the kent ridge park. I did not run for veryyyy long and it feels good great best to run around like some mad person. hmmhmm. No handsome guy with half naked body is running around in kent ridge park but instead there were like tens of malaysian armyboy? I guess walking around the kent ridge park.(It was some war site so I guess they came for some excursion? whatever it is). Their legs look like some reddish seriously. I love guys with nice legs and no hair please.

Ohhhhh. Yes. And I saw god damn 5 monkeys which I never saw before in my 5years life in Kent Ridge Park. Did Singapore zoo donated some monkeys to our area???? I tried my best to act cool in front of monkey and showed attitude that "I am cool If you do not attack me, I am not going to attack you too monkmonk!" Well. I guess my acting was nice enough for them to understand what am I talking about. No monkeys disturbed me hahahaha. But scaryyyyyyyyy. Please go back to ur hometown dear.

Now, I am back in home finally finished entire electrochem after the prelim. Go and die olly. I did not know that application of electrolysis is like so-make-sense. hmmhmm. well it is over. I did not draw damn voltmeter in my paper fyi. Tml is transitional metal day. Two of my weakest chapters! and now I am writing econ essays about provision of education in Singapore. Not very fun but I will drill my market failure until I can correct them perfectly. Although I studied, Ms chong told me that my essay has number of lacking points. Sad much. Damn Damn Damn you prelim. Gonna be demoralised next week. Let us mentally be prepared to get the shock. hmmhmm. My life pretty much suck just like any others. God bless me.

missusu!

2010-09-23T18:15:00.001-07:00

Morning peepppppppppppps. I miss susu and sausagesss. We could not even go sakae to celebrate our last papers for prelims. Pretty much very damn sad. sigh. Anyway, Susu will be busy taking her econ prelim now hahahaa hope she can do like really. and sausage's pooh bear from aussie is in Singapore. Sausage will forget about us until that pooh bear go back to his hometown! but I am happy that she is happy. Are you sure?????????? I dk. :~

I just finished my coffee cinnamon bread but it is not very nice. sad. sob. sob. gonna buy another cinnamon bread tonight! hmmhmmhmm.

I watched going the distances and I wrote one essay about the movie in my Korean blog so I am lazy to repeat here. omit! cool! Anyway, in conclusion Justin Long is HAWT.(wanted to use before hhohohohoho)

Well. Have to do a lot of things. so byebyebyebye. There is seriously less and less substance in my blog hohohoho. Brainless content.

Deditacted to Youngyi hahahah

2010-09-22T17:14:00.000-07:00

MORNING WORLD

2010-09-21T17:56:00.001-07:00

I want chicken ♬ I want drumstick too ♪ shake shake ♩

Hellloo. Yes, my prelim 2 which is going to be the last prelim in my life is officially over.
O. V. E. R. HURRAYYY. Wow. Although prelim 2 was much shorter than prelim 1, I feel like prelim 2 is longer! Seriously suffered pretty much emotionally mentally physically all the "-ally".

Hmm. Gonna start revising from today! GPGP! Need hell lots of tuition for GP. Need to keep my promise with dear youngyi that we are gonna do GP everydayyy. gosh. and it starts from today! She even reminded me yesterday night NOT TO FORGET hahahaha such a love <3

And I identified all the weak topics of all the subjects and for physics, there are no weak topics. Subject itself is rubbish. gotta revise from the very beginning. FML. And lots and lots of things to do. But feel kinda happy <3

Today, I am really going to watch GOING THE DISTANCES no matter what! In need of Justin Long desperately. Need some sweet substance in my bitter life. My life is pretty much female-dominated hahahah as if there was a time when male dominated my life. So I am ready to be seduced by Justin Long!

hmm.hmm. It is thanksgiving day in Korea now :) My famliy will go to my grandfather's house to celebrate blah blah. Gonna call them tonight! I missed so many countless family gathering seriously :( oh well, I can celebrate Korean New Year next year after not celebrating for 5 years.

Ok. Will be off to dhoby ghaut soon. well not really soon but yes soon. Byebye peeps!

Econ dept bless me.

2010-09-20T18:52:00.001-07:00

Hope no teacher will view my blog and I find this picture very cute hahahahaha. especially Mr Chua! and I guess mdm lim and mrs koh could wear the rabbit costume (Alice from or in Wonderland). hmm.hmm. they are having fun anyway.

Well. Yes. I am supposed to be in susu's room but I woke up late and feel that my revision is still not complete. Gotta do some last minute work which I do not strongly believe in lol. It is always just like that! hmm.hmm. Just had very big breakfast cause I do not want to feel hungry laterrrrrrrrrrrr! I will be damn irritated. The biggest reason that I screwed up the papers for this prelim is my stupid stomach! FFFFFFFFF. But well, this time I fully fed my stomach with lots and lots thousands of anchoby hehe did I spell correctly my friend?

Anyway, just had minitiny talk with uncle chris haha. He was asking me how's my prelim2 so far as he attended PTM with me after prelim 1. I told him that my aim is to see improvements in maths and econs and hope I can see some. I can tell you that, this prelim I really felt like I am gambling. I did not know whether I should sacrifice my chem to do well for maths and econ. or should I just take the safe route that do well for chem and do soso for maths and econ. Anyway I decided to let go my chem hahaha byebye. I never tried to revise chem like one day before the exam. Of course I could not remember all those nittygritty things and I threw away mark to all the mdm in chem dept yesterday. Kinda sad, come to think of it. Cause I know I could gain more than 10 marks if I gave chem 2more dayssss sigh! well, everything is over. and I am happy :)

Oh. Back to dialogue session with uncle chris wee kong beng (woahhh), he asked me which faculty I wanna go and stuff. We always discuss this and if he realised I give him always different faculty hahahaahah nuts. But his recommendation is always Banking and Finance which I do not think I want to study. The older I get, the more I hate to work with money. I do not want to play with money and I am such a coward who will never go casino to bet or buy lottery to become billionaire. I always believe that if I get easy money, it will go out easily too. So I want to earn with my hard work. Seriously, I have three things in my mind. I want to work and become economists (I know kinda ewww) or I want to work in international event management area where I can hold EXPO and those international conference. (Haibao Shanghai EXPO really made me feel like participating in Milan EXPO!) or CREATIVE DIRECTORE WOOHOO. We will see.

Anyway, reality check. I have econ essay paper in 4 hours time. Off to correct the market failure! Peace Peeps!

1994 years old "boy"

2010-09-20T07:02:00.001-07:00

My new eye candy! (I love John Park too though :D)

He is born in 1994 for god sake. (I think I already started to finish two bowls of rice by that time.) How can this young boy be so hot. hmm.hmm. Am I that old?????? I thought he is at least same age as me! goshgoshgosh. People fyi, he is one of the participants in Superstar K in Korea and I STRONGLY URGE YOU TO WATCH THE VIDEO BELOW. Please attention at 58s! he is fucking gorgeous. Let me use strong word to show my love towards him. His smile is melting me hmm.hmm. And his voice. What can I say more. and I hate guy who is playing guitar, somehow it looks gross to me. Guys who are playing drum are even worse. sorry. no offence to anyone. My personal tastes. Anyway, coming back to the point, when he plays guitar, I want to be the 5 strings on his guitar. :O Love you to the max and hope to see you on the tv soon handsome. Btw, his thigh is a little too disgustingly skinny. Like really skinny. :O

Am I nuts? I have econ essays exam tml! and still on protectionism. Anyway, I want to comfort myself that I tried 3 questions from raffles prelim 2. Hope similar questions will appear on my paper tml as well :) Cannot wait to meet my rafflers tml! Didn't meet them for 2daysssss! hehehehheehehe. Ok. Burn my last night! and tml going to visit susu in the morning. Miss my BB too :( Actually I feel like going to her room right noww! See you in few hours my viet susu and rafflers :)

bad girl good girl

2010-09-20T03:50:00.000-07:00

JOHN PARK AND KANG SEUNG YOON ARE ABSOLUTELY HOT

fluflu.

2010-09-19T03:00:00.001-07:00

Back from vivo quite early. in fact around 4 hours earlier than what I planned. I am having flu now. f. and my eyeballs are going to pop out at any time. such a bless. We will see how whether I will end up in the hall tml or end up in some random clinic.

back to basic.

2010-09-18T09:11:00.001-07:00

Ok. Let me introduce my roommate, pig. The photo is taken like few months back. I just feel like introducing him/her/it to my blog :) Can you see my other roommate tortoise family behind? btw, I know my bed is effin messy. That is the reason why I hesitated to upload this picture. But well, let us blame my maid. :( anyway, love you pig. Look at that innocent, "I do not know anything *o*" face.

Shit. I find this picture epic stupid. I am really some random tourist with that Haibao soft toy. This is in Shanghai Expo which I never regret visiting. It made me to go and find out the relevant careers that work to facilitate such international events. Anyway, impressive picture. but kinda feel embarrassed though.

Back home quite late. Anyway, gonna finish what I planned for today. Have lots of things to do. esp econs. I want to do well. Seriously. Only case study qn 1 is out. The rest. God please bless me. I want to do well for the subject that I love to study. The only two subjects that I love to learn. GP and Econs. (Loving the subjects and doing well in that subjects is totally different thing. so no any assumption please.) Hungry again. Sigh. Someone is living in my stomach I guess. FFFFF!

oh no F.M.L.

2010-09-16T23:37:00.001-07:00

1. Today was the most tired of tired of tired of tired day. God damn. and I did not eat anything since last night.

2. So, continued from 1st point, of course I screwed my physics extremely badly. hmm.hmm. I was really too hungry until I was angry during the paper. :( this is the most painful reason man. sigh. I was some hungry african kid during 3 hours. sobsob.

3.I was too tired until I did not button my uniform's first button. gosh. Hope nobody saw it which is impossible because I took mrt, bus whatever public transportation that are available in Singapore in the morning. Kill me.

4.Too tired. like seriously. But yet have so many things to do. well. At least next week, I can relax a little! gonna go out with Korean Rafflers and limkini finally. Looking forward peace ★

5. Will be off to dhoby ghaut after bathing. I am very tired.

In conclusion, I am tired. I am in fucking gross status.

Ohno.

2010-09-15T23:41:00.000-07:00

God damn. I should not have started watching it! I just searched for some sweet stuff before I start my physics. and I end up watching part of this drama! ohnoooooooo. I cannot wait to watch full episode. They are freaking damn dead sweet. oh no. oh no. oh no. I am speechless. How can they do not love each other! they are just so pretty and hand some. anyway. fyi, they are together like really together after that drama. No issue. They are just nice. I feel happy for them. (who do I think I am hahahaahahah poor olly m.m) Anyway, gosh gosh gosh forget about physics. I need him. I feel like living inside the TV since all the hot guys are inside the TV.hmmhmmhmm. Olly Olly Olly after A level everything will be fine :) as if all the handsome guy will automatically magically appear in front of me once A is over. Wake up lalalalalalalalalalal olly. Go and be a nun *.* Bye jesus daddy with maria mommy. Olly bless you.

P.S. My heart is still beating because of some random couples. What an extra ollyaaaaaaaaaaa!

OMGGG

2010-09-15T08:12:00.001-07:00

OMGGGGGGGGGG. My mood is very good now because finally

ASH CALLED ME FROM LA. ♥

I seriously cannot be happier than this man. Gosh. I really did not want to hang up the phone sweetheart! I tried to ask her as many questions as possible like where is she living, any hotties from LA (She said there are hundreds of Zac Efron on the street ><), how is her school, any new guys(She is such a good hooker!) and blah blah. I am soooo excited and cannot wait to talk to her again :D I miss old days how we used to stick together to each other! visiting Pacific Coffee Company like our second home! We used to talk on the phone almost every single day! She has been such a wonderful good listener for all my complaints&love story. Gosh. I can list all things out endlessly. I miss her sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! and I am extremely happy that she is doing good there! :D I cannot wait to see her again! Probably next year in LA? sighhhhhhhhhhh. Love you darling! Take care and if you see this post, call me again soon <3>

TIREDDD

2010-09-14T04:20:00.001-07:00

Mrs Kan, I do not want to take maths~ ♥.♥

Hmm. Of course I have to reflect about the last two prelim papers that I took. Well. Chem. I swear I did not study much compares to last time. Maybe 35-40% to be generous. But I still do not regret because I tried my best (Except the last few parts that I could do if I had that damn 1 more minute. sighghghghghg) and I juar feel relieved that I still could do some questions without practicing much. I will study hard for paper 2 I guess if I have time. Still econ is more important for this time. I have to do well like really do well at least for once before I graduate.

Case study was fine. I tried my best too. I have no regret except I feel that I think too much out of the box that I am lost outside. I was hesitating should I write this or not! stuff but well you know, I love writing and I am such a long-winded person so of course I went on writing. But come to think of it, I feel that it is too just too creative to be accepted as the answer so it is WRONG. but still I enjoyed doing case study so I will accept the marks that I get whether it is lower or higher than what I expected. I have no regret.

worried for tml paper. God damn maths. Sigh. Still have more than half to cover by tonight and I know myself. I will not finish revising but will just go for the exam. I cannot stay awake at night to drool maths. It is not only maths anyway. I just feel that sleeping is more importatn anyway. I am damn extremely effin hungry and there is nothing that can be eaten here. Sigh.Sigh.Sigh. I am hungry! oh. finally i have something to regret. I regret not buying milk tea today. Sigh. Sad day. Gotta go and find direction for my vectors. Bye peeps.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA CRAZY

2010-09-12T06:25:00.000-07:00

Things that make me feel happy thesedays ♥

2010-09-11T08:20:00.001-07:00

Let's discuss about the things that make me feel happy thesedays.

1.Drinking Milk bubble tea. It is the best way to start my day <3

2.Sleeping on the center's sofa. cozieee.

3.Having Mcdonald for supper!

4.Stalking people with Youngyi :D

5. TALKING ABOUT WHAT TO DO AFTER A's.

(I shall admit 50%:getting boyfriend, 50%:losing weight. argh.)

I am going to elaborate on number 5 like DUH. woohoo. So the topic will be

Tada!

Ok. It should be the other way that Baby I need you, Boy you need me too. and Boy sounds gross to me. :<

Anyway, but let's look at my current status.

Oh. No!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ㄱ- CMI! ....... for now.....(emphasis on for now.plz.)

I need to be irresistable. I let everybody to laugh at this sentence cause I also find it a bit idioticccc (m.m) Example of being irresistable. well. I guess I am too resistable? hahahaha :(

NVM. Olly can do it! After the A. Look at my determined face. Seriously I cannot stand next year alone right! People let's think logically. I will come back to Singapore in Feb and I have to stay alone till August? WTH. seriously, I am not a NUN.

So, my result of hardwork will be this!

Woohoo. Well. I think he is a little tooo good. But P(finding him in Sg)=0.00000000000001

(no offence. it is difficult to find a guy like him in anywhere. come on.)

Ok. This post is JUST FOR FUN. I just wanted to use a lot of photos in my hardware and I end up bullshitting all the way. but yes. I mean it too though. Whateverrrr.

Reality check : I am not ready for prelim. Just kill me. I did not touch chem after the last lecture. Freak. Freak. Freak. Is it possible to finish our school last year prelim paper by tml? nuts! Well. I digressed to stupid prelims again but well. What to do. Prelim is part of me yea. But I will never love you. GND. Byebye world. love you. Whoever is reading this.

Intimidating numbers.

2010-09-09T08:56:00.001-07:00

WTF. I need GC to see the time. Which moron came up with this intimidating clock?

OMG. Before I start my complex number, this chapter is another chapter that the name itself is extremely intimidating. Complex numbers? What a name. It is really lucky that other chapters' names are not like, scary integration, cute summation, gross uncle Macclaurin series(Sorry, I don't know how to spell his name!) and disgustingly fml permutation and combination. Well. That's all from me today. Just dropped by to insult all the maths topics. kthxbye.

Hello morning.

2010-09-08T19:07:00.001-07:00

Well. I look funny and kinda horrible in this picture but I still love this. At least I look happy and am laughing like nobody's business. God blessed me in Shanghai. and I miss Shanghai "trip".

Just had very nice morning breakfast with my lovelybread from Provence. Seriously, I invested a lot in this bakery. I have been going there everyday to buy nice bread and that makes me feel alive. wtf? haha. I woke up quite late as from monday to wednesday I had to wake up early for some reason but today! I could sleep all I want. YAY. I am going to finish my bread and pack in half an hour! anyway, yesterday I was very restless so my study was rather inefficient but I am fine with it. According to my past experience, it could be worse than that, I mean inefficiency. But I could still do some econs and maths. Sigh. Whateverrrrr. I want to get back my happiness. m.m

Meditating.

2010-09-07T08:18:00.001-07:00

Fine! I told youngyi that I am not going to upload new post today but no matter how tired I am, I still have to communicate with the world I guess. Since this is the only few platform to express myself. and I need meditation.

Sucky mood continued from yesterday and I can tell you that it will continue tomorrow thank god :) F. Anyway, it is so horrible that I have nothing to look for now. Nothing absolutely nothing. I lost all the happiness from tiny little miny things. such as I used to look for new videos to be uploaded in Youtube. I used to feel happy just by finding some nice random song in the net. I used to feel extremely contented by drinking R Irish nuts Creme. Btw I did not drink for more than 3 weeks. Gosh. miss you darling.

Well. But today I feel better than yesterday for some reason. Actually there is no reason. I just feel happy because today I realised that I am extremely weak in integration (I had no understanding, wtf ) but then Youngyi taught me all the gist of integration to me. I feel safe now. She was as good as or even better than my maths teachers in the school. Whatever questions that I ask her, she has answers. Amazing. :D This is public Flattering hahaha :)

I will be scolded again tml :( poor olly.

It has been quite fruitful I would say. At least I did not waste time doing nothing or just simply sleeping. But I do not expect much things out of this prelim two. Because I know my preparation is ABSOLUTELY not enough. Sigh. Ok. Byebye. I need meditation like right naooooooooooooo. m.m

Let go off.

2010-09-06T09:08:00.001-07:00

Simply, it is devastating. I do not find any meaning in whatever I am doing now. and it is sickening. I mean the more I hear about the world the more I do not want to live. Ignorance is bliss. no doubt about this. I mean, I am not stressed solely because of A level. but I am more stressed and pissed because of all the insecurity and uncertainties. Will my hard work be paid off? or is this even hard enough? wtf. and although people comforting themselves by saying that after A level, everything will be over. but I am scared of things that will happen after the A level. I really feel like let go off whatever things that I am holding on to or rather dangling on. It is just sick and I know you will say, you have been withstanding it for so many years and now you want to give up? It is such a waste. Go and die if you do not know how I feel. I do not miss anyone in particular. but of course I have to admit I miss my family so badlymadly and Ms Casablanca who loves to swim at night. Whatever it is, I am saying that I am unhappy and I know this will not help me in anyway. Eww. Life sucks to the max and now currently Olly finds no meaning in everything. wonderful. cheer.

and most importantly, nothing matters to me now.

eww.

2010-09-05T09:34:00.001-07:00

Fuck no! I have to go to school tml at 8 o clock. kill me please.

One word. my life is extremely "EWW" now. Disgustingly full of papers. I am practically almost living in Dhoby Ghaut as I spend more time in there than my own room. now, my room is nothing more than gigantic sleeping bag. Anyway, youngyi is seriously micro-freak. When she explains all the graphs to me, I was *O*. How the hell she remember all these. Seriously, she is geniussss. I am impressed baby <3 anyway, before I sleep I better revise again what she taught me and I better sleep very soon. If not, I will be late for tml some career workshop session thingy. I am sacrificing my damn 5 hours of prelim preparation time. So you better be fruitful. I do not want to be unemployed in the future yea. Sighhhhh. and Ewwwww.

Before I leave.

2010-08-31T22:14:00.001-07:00

I really love her. Her Bright smile, Intelligence, Glamour, Body in particular.

Tomorrow is GP paper and I am seriously severely affected by run yesterday. Fuck you. I cannot stop scolding that. The worst event of the year.

Before I leave my room to go out and study, I just browsed all the Korean students fb who just left to US for further studies. Some of them are in Duke, Cornell, Northwestern and so on. This triggers me to get out of tiny island again but but but welll. I better focus on what I need to do first. Sigh. Seriously all of a sudden I feel like getting out of Singapore. hmmhmmhmm. m.m

Whatever it is, the reality is that I am just a student who are left with 60+ days till A level. FML :-)

Ew.

2010-08-30T21:53:00.001-07:00

Are you nuts? Seriously.

I can tell you that I am damn pissed. What kind of teacher's day celebration is this? Well. The concert and whatever things happened in the hall was great. much better than last year lame show. However, why the hell they insist us to run around the champions way when it is fucking hot. Are you nuts.

Damn pissed. Hate all this house system and I want to write a lot about this but I am going to save my word since I did not contribute any too. So I do not care. I guess I will never see that green shirts again in my life.

Mass running to promote healthy lifestyle of teachers and students? Tell me. Which teachers ran except that 2 male teachers and 1 female teachers out of so many. We are the same. As much as you do not want to suffer under the sun, we do not want it too. I really find this running thing is useless and it is just that school is obsessed to link every single thing in school to Sports. Please come on. I know Singapore or in particular our school is obsessed with sports, it is too much.

Oh well. There will not be anymore this kind of event in my JC life, so please please please let us do something more useful and fun. This just screwed up my day.

I am going to get back my mood. gosh. F.

SIGH.

2010-08-27T07:31:00.001-07:00

OMG. I miss those days when I could play like I never played before.

My life is pretty much miserable and my physics revision pretty pissed me off. Gosh. What do I know about physics. Seriously I am nuts.

I really do not want to go to school. Now even worse, I feel like travelling to school is wasting my time. I want study break badly. I just want to camp in Dobhy Ghaut where I feel the most efficient and comfortable. haha. Ironically, now I spend more time in there than my own room. Remeber how much I used to love my room?

Today I went DG quite late due to stupid maths time trial. Sigh. I will revise stat once youngyi give me her notes hehe :D and and and yea. I do not know. feel seriously effed up but still I know I can do it. Thanks to anh, youngyi and kat for entertaining me everyday :) hmmmmmm. I just want to be done with all these stuff. ewwwww! Ok. Complaining session has ended I will go and date Newton now. Bye!

P.S. Miss you Kat pretty very much! All the best for tml TOEFL and me and youngyi will support you all the way! Stay happy anddddddd see you tomorrow <3

olly has new sisters ♥

2010-08-22T05:08:00.001-07:00

Chu~♥ for my two girls Kat and Youngyi!

HAHA. I feel extremely blessed to meet someone like Kat and Youngyi during this period of time :D and it is again amazing how fast we can get closer to each other! I can imagine myself spending a lot of time to prepare for A level with them haha. Bitching and Chatting session in MADJACK was awesome and fruitful :D I laughed a lot and hope I can learn a lot of things from them! Cannot wait for next week and I really feel lucky to have two new Korean sis who are going through exactly same thing as me. Take care loveee and will see you next week which is kinda soon!

P.S. Kat stay strong like what I told u via sms ^-^ and Youngyi! you are just so lovely what can I say more :> I will go and date Barry now! see youu

sunday morning with left over Irish Creme

2010-08-21T17:56:00.001-07:00

I am drinking left over Irish Creme from yesterday Gloria Jean's session. Now the cashier is saying hi to me haha I think I went there too much and that uncle knows I only use paper cup woohoo. Only if you were more handsome. Although his height is awesome. only height sad to say. n.n

I am determined to finish all the homework so byebye.

Yoyo We are youngsters

2010-08-20T06:34:00.001-07:00

Love two handsome Busanian! Where the hell were you when I was stuck in Busan :(

OMG. I feel very sleepy and slacked pretty much from 7 until now. Goshhhh. Ok. I will off the laptop after updating this entry :D

Oh. I bumped into Mr POH! haha He looked more handsome with new hair and he said he knows that he is more handsome now! what the hahahaha He was drinking his favourite Mos burger Milk Tea and he loves his new workplace. His loves his boss too :) Good to hear that anyway. It feels good to bump into the person that you used to like! but personally I still do not like to bump into people randomly. Especially those secondary school Hi-Bye mate. It feels awkward. Let us respect each other silently by looking away.

Have lots of things to do. ewwwwwww. But I am happy that my flight day is coming soon. :) I cannot wait to finish A level even before it begins. ok. well. I gotta go like really. see you <3

Current mood :)

2010-08-19T06:20:00.001-07:00

My Current Mood : ^-^

I got my parcel from Korea! Full of cookies and cakes from Korea :D

I can have more fruitful and efficient night studies with my food :D

Love you mommy and Siss! She said she will send me whatever I need to encourage me studying hard! :D I will upload photos when I am free see you!

OMG.Ris Low's cheer for YOG

2010-08-16T07:25:00.000-07:00

LMAO. YOG haha

2010-08-16T07:24:00.000-07:00

Olivia Jean's-PasirPanjang Creme

2010-08-16T06:39:00.001-07:00

Ok. Sadly no Gloria Jean's during weekday so my best alternative will be YeYe coffee in the kitchen. what a name hahaha. YeYe coffee ? ㄱ-

Anyway, school is seriously boring. I am really going school to entertain myself with susunuts and sausages! Without them, I do not know! I will not survive seriously. However, I am enjoying revision pretty much in my tiny room with aircon. Love this! I really cannot force myself to stay back but nowadays I can study in my room kinda effectively so yes everything is cool FOR NOW. Anyway, my last bit of night revision will start after I finish posting and I cannot stop updating my blog cause my life is pretty much boring without youtube. I am really not watching wth. Thanks to all the copyrights. I have nothing left to watch idiots. But well, it kinda help me to spend time wisely.

Tomorrow is Indonesia Independence day. wow. Valen has official reason to pon and poor korea independence day was yesterday. which was Sunday. haha. Ok. I really feel that there is no content in my blog but nvmmmmmmm. At least I have someone to talk to. byebye :D zaiziennnnnnnn :D

hello monday.

2010-08-15T06:46:00.001-07:00

Hello darling. Why the hell are you so handsome. Too handsome to be human.

OMG. Weekend is saying byebye to me now. GOSH. I still have not done chem tut! hahaha. because I forgot to bring my damn data booklet out today. ffffffff. So I did all the not-very-urgent stuff first and left chem tut with tiny hope that I will not feel tired at night. But! after bathing, I am already in a sleeping mood and hungry. but I shall not eat. better not! :(

SRJC prelim starts from tml. Good luck to all my last-row-bus-clique dan,nad,ken&haiz. missthemalot! They will miss my crap too! haha Ok. I shall shut down laptop and study. byebye :D

P.S. Ashley is in LA. God damn it! so cool! Her fb status is "There is a bunch of cute guys in UCLA". I am sure that it is not even a bunch. Everybody should look like Zac Efron right! hahahahahah ok. over-generalisation is bad. But I am sure even the farmer looks like Zac Efron! Sorry Zac Efron, I did not mean to insult you but I am praising all the handsome farmers in US if there is one. Ok. Olly's Zac Efron will appear next year after A level. WOOHOO.

Jo Kwon - The Day I Confessed

2010-08-14T19:28:00.000-07:00

Taemin's hairrrr OMFG

2010-08-12T01:54:00.000-07:00

Tired

2010-08-12T01:35:00.001-07:00

O M G I am very tired. It is only second day of school after such a long holiday. But still I am tired. However, I love my condense time table for a time being. Next week, it will not be this relaxed. All the stupid remedial which take up all my revision time. damn it.

My book is getting more interesting. There is a lot of economic and political jokes that make me laugh in the mrt. One very interesting part was,

"There is no more mint chocolate chip, there is no more strawberry swirl and there is no more lemon-lime. Today there is only free-market vanilla and North Korea. There can be different brands of free-market vanilla and you can adjust your society to it by going faster or slower. But, in the end, if you want higher standards of living in a world without walls, the free market is the only ideological alternative left. One road. Different speeds. But one road"

I am extremely amazed by how he liken the concept of "globalisation is not a choice but reality" to different flavours of ice cream versus vanilla. I laughed when he said there is only free-market vanilla and North Korea because it is so true. I want to comment more on what I feel but due to the language barriers, I shall stop it. hahaha. sad! I will write on hello kitty.

Anyway, this book is very interesting once again. and now I am reading middle section of the book which is the most important and exciting part. The author just started to talk about how important ELECTRONIC HERDS are. These Electronic Herds mean those faceless stock, bond and currency traders blahblah. He is going to explain to me why in globalised world, countries cannot achieve economic growth at fast pace without the help of Electronic Herds. People might say, "Isn't the reason so obvious why they cannot achieve economic growth without Electornic Herds?", so what's the reason? I tried to think of that "obvious reason" but I failed to come up with the clear reasons to justify why Electronic Herds are so important. When we cannot even see them. They are really just a piece of paper or invisible promises. I am going to find out more from this writer uncle so byebye!

hello morning

2010-08-09T19:16:00.001-07:00

Before I go off to vivo, let me mourn over something. Tml is school day. I can tell you that I did not miss school for a single day. If you know me well, I hate holiday and staying at home. But somehow I enjoyed this holiday 200% and really F***ing hate to go back to school. I could escape from all the ugly things and bitchy stuff. and now I will be back in 24 hours. Ok. Since I cannot avoid it, I will enjoy today 250% and go back to school tml. I need good food. I have been eating bread and I did not even bump into rice. god damn. Although I am self-proclaimed happy hermit, I still do not dare to step into sushi tei alone to eat soba. so yes nevermind. Will have another round of bread today. sigh. I gotta save money for future gloria jeans coffee. I am going to be broke at anytime looking at my current account haha. ok. nice weather today. shall not waste anymore time in my tiny room. BYE.

Productive Efficiency with Kimber + Sexy Salt.

2010-08-09T06:44:00.001-07:00

Ok. Brief Picture description : I don't want to do Compre Mr Yip Kok Hoong! or Yip Hoong Kok. I cannot remember :(

Today was one of the most efficient + fun day out of 5 days of my holiday. I woke up early and had prata for my breakfast. After that, I packed a lot of stuff and went Gloria Jeans to meet Kimberly. We studied and ate Pumpkin Scone. Niceeeeee :-) It was nice that we focused a lot although there was nutritious gossip session in between, still I believe we did a lot today. Righttt kimber?! haha. We complained tgt about econ homework and we are only left with one question. After studying in Gloria Jeans till 0630, we went to buy some stuff to eat during movie SALT. We bought greentea muffin from Talking Bread. though we did not eat during movie. haha.

About the SALT, It is epic nice. I love the action although it was kinda scary and bloody. I still could take it. means everybody can take it lol. Due to my poor english, I had difficulty catching some important lines but I will find out from net. Me and kimber had discussion who is bad person and who the hell is with SALT. but the movie is really nice. The first movie that I find Angelina Jolie is really irresistable. Although I watched quite number of her movie, I did not find her something beyond sexy but today she was just god damn gorgeous. Ok. Maybe the last part when she had short hair, she looked a little funny though. And US president was cute. hahahaaah

Nice second last day of holiday. Tml I am going to finish all the undone stuff and hope will have last very productive efficient day again. Cheers!

Street Dance is not Step up 3.

2010-08-08T07:30:00.001-07:00

What the hell. I gotta tell you that I thought Street Dance = Step up 3 until the middle of the movie. I was waiting for the actress in trailer to come out but she did not even come out until the end of the show. you know why? cause they are different show. Am I dumb? haha. Ok. Simply, Street Dance is made by UK, Step up 3 is made by US. That is why the male main lead was ugly i guess oops.

Anyway, I should say that this is one of the most well made Dance movie. Personally, I watched a lot of dance movie from Honey, Stomp the Yard to Step up. Step up was always lack of something like 2% but yesss this movie is again quite cliche in a way that there is again that combination of Hiphop and Ballet. But! They handled it very well. It is not lame at all. And thanks to wonderful Britains who got talent "Diversity". I knew that they are diversity once they were up on the screen. That entire group of Beefed black guys must be diversity. Really epic nice. Damn nice. Everybody should watch it. and one good thing was that, when I though street dance=step up 3, I went to search all the critics comment about step up 3. Everybody said the story is again not very good but dance is nice. So my expectation of the movie was very low. But in the end, I watched different movie which is "Street Dance" and it is beyond my expectation. I feel so satisfied. The girl was so cute. Love her body. Not tall. But very sexy woho. and and right after the movie, I ran to the MJ multimedia to get the soundtrack. Actually, that is the place where I realised that two movies are different and I almost bought the Step up 3 OST! but I am smart. I went around the shop to find other OST and there you go. STREET DANCE OST! I am listening to it now. Nice.

Final performance was breathtaking. Very dynamic. vibrant. omg. I really wished that last performance would go on forever. It is great. And my favourite classic song from Nodame was in too. Gotta find the title. I totally forgot about it. Anyway I need to go and bathe now. Bye!

SUNDAY

2010-08-07T19:43:00.001-07:00

Yesterday, went out with Kimber to study in Gloria Jeans and I will be going there in 2 hours :D It was efficient. From Friday, I could finish 80% of the daily plan. I always plan excessively so that I will not feel so bad even if I do not finish it. Hope next two days and today will co-operate with me well :)

Yesterday and today morning, I watched documentary about "Prostitution in America". This is second documentary about prostitution that I am watching. They deal with same thing but the first one that I watched was made in documentary movie form but yesterday one was more like "real" show that includes many interviews and cctv. Interesting. Human trafficking, racism, amazon, Africa blahblah will never make me lose interests in them. and I am going to watch "Blood Diamond" documentary and Skinhead by next week. They are interesting and nice but I feel kinda scared after watching them. :o

Today, I will be leaving soon. I will watch Step up 3 tonight if nothing goes wrong like no tickets or extremely inefficient work. I doubt they will happen. I finished packing bag. and will clean my room for awhile since that maid is gg to be out soon today.

I miss my sister so much. <3

P.S. Harry is going Thailand today for his holiday. What a good life. I love Thaiiiiiiiiiiiii! anyway hope he will have great time there before enter to men-rich NS. yuks.

God bless Gorgeous.

2010-08-07T06:46:00.000-07:00

Olly is 19.

2010-08-03T08:00:00.001-07:00

Ok. Happy birthday to Olly. I am 19. Wow. Whatever. Now, birthday is just another day and celebrating sexy 19 during this stupidly hectic intensive A level revision period is such a luxury. I do not deserve enjoying my birthday. Right MOE. Reply to me. Ok. It is not entirely MOE fault. The very fact that I am alone in Singapore is the root of the problem. Nevermind. This misery will over in about more than 1 hour. Gosh.

In the school, lovely 0923B celebrated my birthday with our symbol Mango cake! haha. Seriously thanks to all! and special thanks to susu. :D

After the school, I went home. I changed. Went to Gloria Jeans to study and I was craving for that R Irish Nut Creme like crazy. So had a large cup again. I would not be able to sleep today obviously. and there was this lovely couple, multi racial asian-western. OMG. They look toooooo sweet until I could not stand my bitter Reap Econs essays. Gosh. When that handsome white uncle walks in to the cafe, that girlfriend was walking towards himmmmmmmmmm and there they stop. Right In Front Of the Cashier. hahaha. That staff in Gloria Jeans look very hmmm -,- Anyway I enjoyed the scene pretty much! They just looked like some movie. Sweet Sweet Sweet. Sudden urge to get Zac Efron in Singapore if there is one. Ok. I prayed to have effing hot husband as my birthday wish so hope it will come true.

Ok. Nothing much to write. Overall, my mood is bad obviously. I just wish it was not my birthday today. At least I will not feel sad for not having my family or whoever to celebrate. I celebrated with pretty much homework and esp integration. Thanks. And my deactivation of FB account allowed me to find out who can remember my birthday without FB reminder. I did not intend to purposely deactivate to find out this kind of thing I deactivated from last week already. Whatever it is, I was happy that there are people who still can remember birthday without FB. because FB made people's life extremely easier by announcing people's birthday and the birthday girl or boy's wall will be flooded with "Happy Birthday" which I do not really find the point but I think it is still not bad idea to wish people happy birthday like that. as long as the person feel happy. Fine. I should not be too emo on my birthday. Will go and enjoy integrating ugly numbers.

P.S. Forgot to mention someone very special KIMBERLY. I was so damn extremely touched by her cookies and she used my favourite chocolate to bake it. I am really touched. :D Her mind is as gorgeous as her face and features and everything. hahahahahaha :D see you tomolo darll.

P.S.2. Something very sweet happened. My guardian and her daughter gave me a scoop of ice cream and vanila fudge bar to wish me happy birthday. Thanks for Carmen remembering my birthday :) and thanks for being such a great family for me in Singapore. Love you all.

Give me one will do.

happy hermit :-)

2010-08-01T06:42:00.001-07:00

WTH. I want one too. No. I want 10000000. kiss me lalehmaba! not that small kid. You will be white-haired old uncle when that small tiny beatch grows up. She will not look at you anymore. she will go and find someone younger than you! At least we are around same age. Twentygers.(Oh sound weird) So just take me and let us live happy every after. He is holy god damn buddha handsome. and love his personality is awesome (Y). Only if he was a lil smarter. Ok. Must be fair. If he is smarter, then all the guys in the world will not find any meaning in their lives. will go and just bite their tongue to the death. I am joking and I mean it too. Whatever. This is just out of sudden anger from the bottom of my heart, because I do not want to admit that I will never, ok let us do not say never, it is too hard to drag.meet.kidnap him into my real life. Gosh. Sad.

Ok. Today was Gloria Jean's much day again. Yesterday I tried some diced chicken sandwich and today I tried Cajun chicken bagel. nice nice nice. I love it. hmmm. Ok. I went their to do my work. and I talked on the phone with my sister for a while. and she told me something very retarded haha. Last week, my uncle (my mom's brother)'s family came to busan to have some sort of tinyminy family gathering with my sister and mom. Is that even a gathering? haha.

whatever it is, they talked about my marriage. Am I that old? and fyi, my sister told me they kept talking about me although I was not even around. they miss me yea hoho. ok. back to the gist, my mom always told me that, whichever fortune teller?! (those ppl who can see the future) she went to, all of them said I will marry foreigners. Yes. International marriage. I always dreamt to marry white WHEN I WAS YOUNG. I am not racist. When I was young, I just found Jesse McCartney very cool. Wanted to marry him. I wanted to marry Will Smith too. Jaden Smith could be my kid hahahaa ok gross. Sooo, they said, they think I will marry foreigners or Singaporeans who are foreigners as well. I do not mind any country but what I look for in my husband is all the same. I guess I do not need to repeat that long list of stupidly high criteria. It is just a expectation. Not the must. But it will be effing good if I can find the one who suit that.

And there goes my uncle, he said, If I marry foreigners in overseas, he expects me to send him air tickets with 1week hotel accommodation. WTH. hahahaha. then I told my sister to tell him that, I will marry in his apartment foyer. haha. and he said, he will not come to my wedding if I get married in the church. (I want to marry in the church. I just love the atmosphere. cozy. antique) He is buddhist who is very much against the christian. haha. So I told my sister that, I will marry in the church so he does not need to attend. Ouch. haha. I love uncle. I mean this uncle. He is very funny and always teach me a lot of things that I should learn in my life. such a wise man. And I love him cause he always gives me a lot of allowance. Cool. Ok. That is about it. I feel like finally I wrote something on my blog that is not about gloria jeans. haha.

It is very messy post. I know but I told you that is the way I write. Fyi, I write like this even when I write in Korean. So again, bear with it. I shall skype with my sister soon to plan about next year :D

Lovely Saturday.

2010-07-31T06:02:00.000-07:00

OMFG. I just deleted whatever I wrote. FFFFFFFFF. Irritated. Ok. I said Se7en is back. he is hot. I love "Digital Bounce" more than "Better together". Love the dance. But I still love his hair in "Better Together" than "Digital Bounce". Complicated much?

His hair in Better Together!

Ok. PTM was wonderful. I wrote my reflection on my diary alr. So I am not going to elaborate anymore in blog. Lazy. and shall keep it to myself anyway it is PTM for me and my guardian. Nothing much to announce. Oh. Yes. My G-Bragon came for PTM too. haha. I just came up with this name in Gloria Jeans today. Since ur name starts with G. Well. Crap aside, now, I am doing egg facial pack on my face. I cannot move my face. I cannot move my eyes, nose and lips. hahahaha. Ugly like hell. NVM.

Date with Gloria Jeans was great. I did what I planned and almost finished. I am going to finish it by today after updating the blog. I am not watching WGM anymore. (Pat Pat Pat triple Pat on my shoulder) ok. It came naturally haha. I did not plan or decided not to watch. But somehow it is too lazy for me or rather I lost interests in that program. I guess. I hope so. Actually I just skipped two weeks only which means I can catch up anytime I want. Hope it will be next year. well. But I am still watching HOT BROTHERS. Cannot stop :D

Tml, I will date with Gloria Jeans again and I managed not to watch movie this week. I always feel that if I do not watch movie, there will be not enough motivation for me to stay in Gloria Jeans but well today somehow I could spend my god damn 8 hours in Gloria Jeans without playing my hp games. Ok. This kind of fabulous day comes once in a while. So I am going to enjoy it until 12 and go to sleep. I want to wake up early. Love you olly.

PRESENT :D

2010-07-30T05:01:00.001-07:00

HEHEHE. Finally my birthday present from Korea has just arrived! I am sooo happy :D hohohololololoooloo. I was in very tired mood but when I saw the box of parcel in my room! I went to take the penknife and opened it at the speed of lighttt. All the bags and one maxi dress from Turkey and another maxi from Korea! I am very happy. Love you mommy and sisterrrr! :D Tomorrow I am going to wear for my vivo revision session :D I cannot wait! And all the wallets and small pouch! you are so gonna loved by me chuchu <3

School sux. I am tired of everything. 93 days. wowwww. ending soon. yes. I am gonna do it. and go back to korea. finally will be able to celebrate Korean new years. I have not been celebrating it for last 5 years for god sake. fyi. hmmm. had two muffins today wth. and he is so handsome. you should not be attached uncle. hmmmm. currently crazy over all the old songs that I used to listen when i was p6. it feels great. I feel like I am p6 now. What a nonsense. hahahaha. Everybody should listen to sexy m&minem crack a bottle. It is really nice. I love the beat. Love you sexy slim rabbit shady.

Weekend is going to be nice and wonderful. I am gonna finish all my works. Like really. Tomorrow is parent teacher meeting. After that I will come back home rest for a while and fly back to vivo Gloria Jeans :D and continue reading my book. Ok. One interesting thing that I really wanted to share with whoever read this. The first edition of book, The Lexus and the olive tree was written around 1998? or so and second edition was around 2000. and there he goes, he is talking about globalisation.(not reliable source, go and goggle urself if u want to find out) A lot of things that he mentioned around 10 years ago, really came true. because I always compare the progress of globalisation in 2010 to 2000 when I read this old book. It is really interesting how things changed over 10 years and it is crazy. I feel kinda sad that he wrote this book when there was no Facebook and Iphone because I am curious what would this uncle comment about all these baby of globalisation. I wish he would write 3rd edition.

Ok. Off to study. Byebye.

F yeah,

2010-07-29T15:09:00.001-07:00

pretty much globalisation.

2010-07-25T07:30:00.001-07:00

I finally did book shopping! I wanted to enter Pageone so badly and today finally I entered. I chose around 5-6 books to look through and I decided to buy this very famous book called "The Lexus and The Olive tree" and of course there is behind story about this book. There is one of my not-so-close friends(during secondary school) called Marble(direct translation from Korean). She reads a lot until she can produce Econ essays without studying lecture notes cause all the books in her shelves are Econ text book for her. She reads that much. She learnt all the European history by reading her own favourite history book, not text book. I admired her a lot although I was not really close to her, and I clearly remember that she was reading this book when I was secondary 2. Crazy. I mean she read about globalisation 6 years ago?! Godness. Anyway, I love the synopsis of this book and it is non-fiction. Yes! and due to this book, could not buy the economists. :( okay, maybe I will get next week one!

I met Shiny finally! The photos are still in my handphone, pretty much lazy to transfer now. I have to do some work before I sleep. It was so wonderful that although we did not meet for more than a year, we could still treat each other like we just met last week. It was really awesome. She told me a lot of things about her life which is pretty much different from mine, about her boyfriend! (envy you very much!), her plan for next year blah blah blah. So cool! I love it so much. We had dinner in Swensen's Earles and she bought me yogurette chocolate which I wanted to try so much! Thank you love! oh and she bought a lot of jelly for her boyfriend too. Such a sweet sexy. She made me laugh a lot today and meeting old friend really made me feel good and happy :D Hope she will stay cool and happy! and want to meet up again for dinner! Ok. Off to read my new book. BYE :D

Lovely day.

2010-07-22T05:50:00.000-07:00

Before I start my post, I shall wish my mommy HAPPY BIRTHDAY! JESSICA :D haha. Jessica is her English name, sooo cute! Love my mom to the max. I miss her so much. Now she told me that she is otw to home after birthday celebration. I should be there! :( I am going to talk to her on skype soon :D Once again, I love you so much mom. REALLY :D

Today school was quite fun. I mean it is same as usual. I feel that there is an increase in tension between everybody in terms of studies which is pretty much normal in all the J2s classes. I hope we can endure until it ends :D 0923B yay!

Student Council Investiture whatever was quite fun. I could see all the new councilors and cca leaders. hmmmmmm. There is one thing that I am really upset about. Why the F all the people do not pick up the rubbish. It is stupid. I personally hate littering. In the canteen especially. There are more than 10 rubbish bins around the canteen for god sake. If you do not throw away ur rubbish, it just shows how much irresponsible and immature you are. Suck. I could convince Angela and Shermaine to pick up all the rubbish with me after the assembly and although at first they asked me what am I doing? in the end three of us could clean the hall. Such a lovely Sher and Gel. Next time should train them in canteen too :D Thankssssss for joining anti-littering.

Lastly, I went to Salvation army to give tuition today. I was not able to go there for like a month due to my prelims. My student looked very stressed just like me. She is scared just like me too. I taught her organic chemistry and I was very amazed that actually there is FRS and EA reaction introduced in our secondary textbook. which I did not understand that time. haha. It was quite easy to teach her cause Secondary org.chem is much easier. After tuition, she told me that if I cannot make it for tuition, just tell to the person in charge cause she understands that I am busy with my own studies. I was touched and feel sorry to her as I could not help her as much as I want because of my own exam. I appreciate her understanding and she is such a sweet girl. I hope she can continue to study hard and hopefully I can visit her next week again. It feels very good to give my hands to people who are desperate for my help. I feel very fully UTILISED in this society. :D Ok. I am going to deal with my Complex Number. I feel too guilty for not doing maths tutorials haha. Even she asked me with very concerned- face today, "Are you okay?.... what happened". haha Nothing happened. I am just dealing with too many subjects like I am juggler.

coexistence of cute and sexy.

2010-07-21T06:34:00.000-07:00

WTF. You are only 1993 for god sake. Who taught you how to make sexy looks? goodness. My heart is pumping pia-a-pat like crazy.

Yesss. My eardrum is full of Lucifer. Everybody gotta watch the mv. So sexayyy. as usual. as expected. But still nice. New hair style with nice dance move.(I see some indian moves inside though. kinda like it haha) Ok. I love him man. to the max. Please I want one too. This is desperate. I am desperate for cute and sexy guy who is alive and living right here in Singapore. Gosh.

Today. I stayed back in school to do work. I realised how efficient it is to stay back in school. I did quite a lot of things but it only took 2 hours. It would have taken more than 3 hours for me to finish 50% of what I did today, if i were in my room. Anyway, tomolo i need to stay back again as I have to go down to SA to give tuition. hmmmm. weekend outing of VOV is currently suspended due to Valan sausage's auntie haha I shall go and watch Nodame Cantabile or Oceans this week. I want to watch both of them but welll I will watch the one that will close down soon first!

hmmm. quite boring. I have nothing much to write :( ok. It means I have to go and do something more fruitful such as homework. Byebye Sexynerd is going back to study mode.

must stay cool!!!!!!

2010-07-20T04:40:00.001-07:00

Well. Finally, I god back all the papers. Nothing much to comment about. I deserve these marks come to think of it. I was upset and sad about my econs paper but yes. I am the one who could not understand the question and I am the one who could not manage time well. Who else to blame right. I am accepting it and kinda moving on. My parents told me "just do not care prelim" but like how mommy and daddy! Yea, they tried their best not to discourage me. Feel very sorry to them :( but they know that I tried hard too. So yes, the only way to compensate this shitty prelim1 is doing well for prelim2 which is about 7 weeks away from now? means I am off-ing my laptop now. Byebye.

P.S. Shinee is back and Taemin is too hot. Is he really 1993 for god sake? He is same age as all the J1s in our school? you must be kidding me. then, Why there is no such 1993 in our school then!

sunday evening is such a ♥

2010-07-18T08:44:00.001-07:00

This picture is my hp wallpaper now. I feel shocked whenever I open my hp but I will get used to it. And this post is going to be a lengthy post as I am in a good mood :D

I was very inspired during my quiet self-reflection session in Gloria Jean's. I love this feeling so much. It was very wonderful evening with nice music, nice sofa with nice coffee R Irish Creme! :D So I am just going to write whatever I felt during self-reflection session in Gloria-Jean's Coffees :D

Ok. Sunday morning was suck to the max, ok not really. I watched Youtube until noon. And then, I went to steam some sweet potatoes for my lunch. I slacked and read a book "Tuesday with Morrie" and I finally finished it. I am proud that I took only 1 week to finish it although I think most of people would take shorter than that. I learned quite few things from the book but I have to admit that it was not as nice as what I expected. Still Five people meet in heaven (forgot the title) was nicer because I still cannot forget about the shocking-feeling that I got after reading that book. It was amazing how the author could show me that all of our lives are linked. Awesome.

Actually I planned to go back to my previous book, "The shadow of the sun" but I did not have a chance to go library to borrow that book. So meanwhile, I decided to read "The Audacity of Hope" written by Obama. I bought this book even before he was elected as US president. I remember I was thinking should I buy Hilary Clinton's book or Barack Obama's book. I wanted to buy the book of future US president. So I guess I guessed correctly. Obama became the president! while this book was nicely kept in my wardrobe. It was too hard to understand few years back. However, today I realised that now I can understand the content more than last time. I did not start from the beginning cause I am not very interested in his childhood and so on. I am reading 'Opportunity' section, and guess what. There is full of econs inside. He was talking about competition between firms, structural unemployment, tax cuts and everything. I feel so happy that all my econs knowledge can be linked to his book and I feel extremely enlightened.

I personally love to study econs. I am not talking about lecture notes! I love the way I study econs. (Same thing applies to GP) They are no longer just H2 subjects to me. I know I am not those absolute "A" students for econs but I still love to read about it and source for reading materials. (but I personally dislike to find the stuff from net. Boring) So now, I am even thinking of studying econs after I graduate from JC. Thinking Only. I have soo many things that I want to do. But econs is new kids on my block.

I want to study Arts and social science to work in Arts and Cultural Industries, I want to study Mass Media to work in advertising and marketing industries, I want to study Social science again to work in Africa(hard to explain this stuff), and I want to study economics to work in ..I am not sure yet. Ok. I really wish that the end of the world will not come so soon as I have soo many things to do. Oil Spill in Mexico extremely make me concerned these few days. The area that is affected by this oil spill is 22 times of Seoul for god sake. That is crazy. I heard that from August onwards, the whole world is going to see the serious effect of it. I really feel scareddddd. OMG. People let's love the earth. We will never be able to win over the earth. It is easier for us to save it rather than fight with it.

P.S. Omg. My hateful habit of writing a lot of different thing in one paragraph always piss me off. But it is the way I write. Sighhh. :<

Despicable me!

2010-07-17T06:39:00.001-07:00

What a sexy movement. Love you thick lip <3

I am just back from vivo! Today, I met limkini to study and watched Despicable me! It was soooo nice. It was as nice as toystory :D Though the characters in toystory are a little bit cuter :D Anyway, it was touching too. Uncle Gru's nose was very impressive. ohh and unfortunately kini still had difficulties in walking! I guess my pray did not really work hahaha Both of us did not change at all like seriously after 2 wks. I still could not hear half of the time what he was saying like some deaf haha and his random discovery was still there. today's discovery was well. actually his discovery is kinda amazing though it is extremely random haha So it was fun day with such a nice koala to talk to and could finally catch Despicable me! I gotta sleep early tonight. I am lack of blood and Fe. well. enough of crap. byebye.

class BBQ :)

2010-07-16T06:56:00.001-07:00

I will never fail to fall in love with guy who has nice smile honghonghong :)

I am just back from class BBQ. The school was extremely tired and due to my wisdom tooth and eardrum, my left side of face was extremely aching. ouch. Anyway, it is all because of LACK OF SLEEP. I have been sleeping around 4 hours for last 3 days. Ok back to bbq, it was fun! though now I smell like chicken wing ): Feeding people was very fun and valen's sick joke made everybody laugh! Angela,Sher and Fasha did alot of work today! thanks to all of them :D JJ was busy fanning for me too :) Both of us had no idea when to stop bbq-ing chicken wings! sighhh haha. Me and Val had to leave early as we were living far away from woodyland. However, it was exciting as this is our first class bbq :D I am happy that valen was there *^^*

I may meet val tomorrow in vivo to study and catch a movie and if not I will do it by myself! haha I need quiet time to finish all the homework and revise things anyway. School life is soooo hectic. and a lot of other things are currently pissing me off. Anyway, I cannot take this eardrum pain anymore. I have to sleep right now. Byebye. Photos will be up soon :)

early TGIF.

2010-07-15T06:26:00.000-07:00

Hellooo. I am finally posting something :D I love new timetable. It gives me enough time to revise in my nice air-conditioned room. Since a lot of my favourite youtube accounts are being suspended, I am pretty much isolated from it. Sigh but anyway good for me. though I still feel sad. School is great. It is the weather that I really cannot take it. I want to shoot the sun down. WTF. So hot. I am melting on the way to home and feel damn sticky+irritated. Gosh.

Hmmm. I have not been focused on anyother thing beside school. There was no sexy to distract me for these few days. Didn't look at lee joon for quite long! anyway, I just finished ordering my new stuff from Korea! New bag, wallet, pouch, pencil case all the brand new stuff will come soon! I will upload the pics soon. :D I cannot wait to get them. My wallet is just too-pathetic now. Too-ness by sobaboy.

Can teachers stop updating about their feelings on FB! esp abt our scripts. I know they are stressed but they even write that "Am I marking wrong question?" Come on. We studied! Stop demoralising us even before we get back our paper goodness.

Tml is our class bbq! like finally :D VOV+gel&sher are super happy :D hehehehhehe. Hope the weather will be wonderful just like me ♥

Sigh.

2010-07-12T06:29:00.001-07:00

OMG. Two sexy guys sharing fags. Double-hot. Ouch.

Oh well. The results are out. I mean some of the subjects. So far I did not fail anything but I pass them with not very satisfying grades. GP. I am gonna kill you. Sigh. Well, but it is the subject that I still love to learn :) hmmmm. My mommy is back from Turkey and she bought a lot of stuff for me! I cannot wait for my birthday parcel to arrive ermmmm like next month?! hahaha. This once-in-a-year parcel always make me happy :D I mean I am happy waiting for it. School was not very fun but still bearable. I gotta go and do homework. BuyBey.

sunday!

2010-07-11T06:29:00.001-07:00

OMG. I have been eating good food for last 4 days and I am still putting RITZ into my mouth! Goodness. I better stop eating :( Better be motivated to stop eating since tomorrow I have first PE lesson of the term which means we are going to take height&weight. I do not want to be underheight! Anyway, I love her face, big eyes nose lips. I love face like that@

Ok. Today is Sunday. I went to church and it was quite demoralising though cause I do not know what to believe. Should I believe god? or myself? I cannot lose control rather do not want to lose control in my life. I do not know how people can let the life to be controlled by the god. I mean I am still not ready for that. But I know I have to give my life to Jesus holy Christ. Goshhh :( Why is it so hard.

I have to write down some prayer title for this week.

1.Safe arrival from Turkey for my mom & healthy and happy life for my dad and grandma and all the family members.

2.I want my sister to be positive, strong and happy for coming week.

3.Let VOV have productive and happy school life for next week.

4.Hope Hadi always stays happy and healthy.

5.Kenny's legs need to be recovered ASAP too

6.Please let Harry to have peace in his mind and have fruitful time with his loveones before his NS. Sad man.

Lastly for myself, please give me some space in my mind that I can take care of other people, always share love with others and get closer to god for god sake.

Do I look some freak christian-wannabe? I better be since my sister wants it so much. Sigh! Fine. It will come naturally nobody can force me anyway. And bible is too thick and difficult to read sigh. Am I going to go church again next week? Idk. I better. Okk at least I must show jesus christ that I do not find him only when I need him right.

It's already 0930 PM and have not done anything beside eating non-stop edeert. Ok byebye! God bless you hahahahaha AMENNNNNNNNNN too!

Happy day.

2010-07-10T05:07:00.000-07:00

I spent wonderful time with my friends for last few days and I guess I kinda released all my stress :D On Thursday, I went out with Kimberly and Rayne, caught Toy Story 3! So cool! Seriously, everybody gotta watch it! My shopping was successful as I could get all those stuff that I wanted at half price. :D

And today is Saturday! I went for Panel meeting in Toa Pa Yoh in the morning and today there were only 4 groups seeking for the funds! :D Kinda relaxed but our pace of discussion was kinda slow compares to last months :( So in the end, we ended our meeting around 12+. Anyway, today I am supposed to meet limkini but he sprained his legs yesterday. OMGOSHHH. haha. Anyway, he was nice enough to make a call this morning to say sorry haha what a polite Koala. So we decided to delay it until he recovers and I told him that by the time he recovers his legs, we would need to meet with chem notes already haha. He said he cut his hair and insist that he looks like Torres now! We will see whether he looks like Torres or his hair only looks like Torres. Yes, I am always mean like this :( haha Recover soon limkiniiiiiiiiiiii.

After the meeting, I decided to tag along Val and Lek to ion. So, before I meet them, I went to Macdonald to do some stuff and homework. I ordered Vanila milkshake and it is so nice! goodness. It is much more delicious than McFlurry LOL. Me and Val forgot to take pictures cause we were busy shopping and eating! It was soooo nice to meet her during weekend as she is extremely busyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy watching movie in hostel! haha. Hope next week, our VOV reunion will be more boomz. :D I am very tired. Going out everyday is really crazy! I gotta rest before I talk to my sister on Skype! BYEBYE HAPPY WEEKEND.